-jibin-

2008-10-28T19:34:00.003+08:00

a friend told me that she broke up with her boyfriend just to let him go out and explore. she doesn't want to tie him down. she wants him to know what he really want, have more experience on dealing with relationships, before they consider whether to get back together again. i think she is so brave.

2008-10-27T23:49:00.003+08:00

love can be just so amazing.
so strong, so mysterious, so unpredictable...
is this what love is all about?
not everyone is so lucky to experience and get to understand it.
i finally got to understand that there's many stages to go through.
some couples are together for so long, yet why do they still break up?
i think it's really cos they haven't had the chance to go through some stages to bring the relationship to another level.
"meeting the right person at the right time"
i finally understand the meaning of this.
since life so unpredictable,
i'll just leave things to fate...

2008-01-10T18:52:00.000+08:00

Lol i'm finally back to blog! =) I've started work at Soitec for one week already. It was boring! I'm in the Process Sustaining Department, so I have to go in and out of the cleanroom to work on the machines to collect data. Cleanroom, as suggested by its name, is a very clean room which cannot have a speck of dust or impurities. Before anyone steps into the actual room, we have to go through many doors and wear like an Astronaut, with the hair, eyes, mouth, body, hands, legs - every part of the body covered. So troublesome. But the people take care of me a lot, especially the auntie that is in-charged of the cleanroom. Everytime I go in to change, she'll go,"Meimei! Ni hao ma? Chi bao le ma?" Lol. Oh ya there's no canteen there! Because the company is too small, so we have to go out to eat. Sometimes we'll go to White Sands, sometimes to Downtown East, sometimes to Giant.. Luckily some people there very nice, when they are going out to eat, they'll ask me and Jiayan along and they'll drive us there. Jiayan is a friend I made there. She's from TPJC, a temporary stuff too, waiting for A's results. Hmm and I like my table. It's in one corner, so cosy. But my table is just outside my boss' office, a bit scary, make me don't dare to slack till too obvious. Lol. Another bad thing is that it's at Pasir Ris! Sobs. Everyday I have to travel for so long to and fro. Tiring.

2007-12-14T15:15:00.000+08:00

I had my Prom Night and class chalet last week. Prom was alright, it didn't go as well as I expect it to be. I just remembered myself sitting there hoping the night to end fast so that I could get out of there. We skipped the post prom party at the Arena and went to KTV instead. We got a Christmas logcake for JunAn. It was my saviour for the night as I was really starving! And to think that I paid 85bucks for dinner at Marriott Hotel. Anyway the icecream logcake was really nice! Hope to get to eat it again during Christmas =)
At 6am in the morning, we got out of Party World and roamed down Orchard Road. I went to Tricia's house after that and we slept for 3 hours before setting off again. I went to the airport to send shioks off before going to chalet. It would be a long time before I get to see shioks again. Sigh. I'll miss you! Anyway, we had bbq that night and I couldn't remember what actually happened after that.
I woke up and realized it's almost noon already. But I wasn't the last to wake up. Lol. We had lunch and some went to Escape. Most of us didn't have to mood to go so the rest of us went to cycle instead. I tried learning but failed again. Haha. Oh ya I met Huitian there and we chatted for a while before she set off to prepare for her night cycling. It was so nice to meet her and talked to her after so so so long. It really made my day=) Anyway we then went for dinner at White Sands and rented some dvds. Some of us bbq-ed again as there were leftovers. Then we watched dvds till we fell asleep.
We went to Mac for breakfast in the morning and came back to chalet to play some games. Finally it did feel like a class chalet to me as we finally got together to play something as a class. But too bad there was only like less than half of the class then.
I felt that there was not enough class activities, so Hek went to organize another cycling session on Sunday that week. Although there was only a few of us went, it was fun! And I finally learnt cycling!! Hahaha. We cycled for almost 6 hours that day I think, from East coast to Changi beach and back. Saw many aeroplanes taking off, so cool!

Okay fun is over, it's time to look for job seriously. Help me! Haha.

Christmas is coming. It's another round of presents exchanging. Haha. So fun! I remembered how we walked down Citylink with Xmas hats on our heads during Xmas' eve. Lol.

And I remembered how I spent my Xmas' eve night.

2007-11-18T13:45:00.000+08:00

Packed my room yesterday. Finally it does look like a bedroom again. Lol. I came across letters, presents, photos... Images came to my mind. How I miss those days. Soon, I found myself flipping through my long-lost diary, and tears started flowing again. I guess it's time that I should start sorting out my thoughts. No more excuses. But I gave myself the last chance to run away from it until the end of Physics paper next tuesday. So, it's time to gather all the courage and strength I can find and face it. I'm not going to do anything on impulse again (i hope. lol).

On a happier note, A's going to be over, means...I have all the time I want to do things I always wish to do!=) I'm going to enjoy first, then work and enjoy again! Lol. I'm starting my search for the old me, the happy me. So, =D

Recently, I got to know of something, it makes me feel that life is vulnerable, anything can just happen and we may just live in regrets for the rest of our lives, it's just no point drowning ourselves with work and neglect loved ones around us. So, I'm going to treasure every moment from now on. But it seems like we would only learn to treasure when we lose it. Nonetheless, I'll try, and be a happier person=)

2007-11-11T14:56:00.000+08:00

Woah. Five more papers and I'm out of this! I'm going to finish the whole exam feeling guilty and ashamed of myself. I did not put in hundred percent as I promised myself to do so. I allowed myself to sleep too much, daydream and watch youtube during exam period. It's not as if I'm so prepared already. Urgh, so angry with myself. I haven't been getting good results, yet I didn't want to work hard enough and kept giving myself excuses to slack. I have bad feelings about this exam. I think it's going to another thing I'm doing to make myself live in regrets.

2007-10-25T20:23:00.000+08:00

I'm so sick of this sad life.
It's not because of studying.
It's just that sometimes I even forget what a smile is like.

People come and go.
One day they'll all leave me.

2007-10-14T23:31:00.000+08:00

Let me take you on a tour around my beautiful school..

nanyang's A-star toilet

one year ago..

today..

2007-10-11T19:34:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the last official day of school. Although school started at 9:30am, I reached at 6:45am so that I could walk around the school to take some photos. As I walked around, lots of flashbacks came to my mind..

I remembered when we were in J1, my class used to gather at squash court during breaks. Some would start copying tutorials, some would watch others playing squash.. and the times we used to occupy the whole row of tables in canteen and spend the break time together. During J1, we went everywhere together as a class, a united, bonded class. My friends envied me. I felt so lucky. We took part in dragonboat fun race, attended Ms Ng's wedding, went to Escape to celebrate Minjun and Jack's birthday, went to Gracehaven Children's home for CIP, played basketball, went Kbox, had the most people in a class wearing ethnic costume on Racial Harmony Day, Kayaking expedition, and many many more.. All of which happened during J1. I admit that there was a period that I found myself being very disppointed in this class and how I wished the year to end soon. However, I realized no one mean it that way, things just happen as time passes. It's A-levels year and everyone's busy with their own life and studies. I realized when people do not show their feelings, it doesn't mean that they do not care. Deep down, they may be feeling the same way as I do. I feel so guilty when I got to realize all these as I've misunderstood them for so long.

Anyway, we had our last official lecture, Chemistry. After that, we attended our Graduation Ceremony. There were speeches by the Guest-of-honour, Mr Kwek and a teacher (I forgot his name.. oops). The teacher's speech was really touching and I almost burst into tears. I reflected on all the things that happened these two years in Nanyang. I'm so glad that I got posted here. I remembered the very first day I stepped into NY as a NYJCian, I really hated the school. It was the worst days of my life during the first week of school. But after orientation, after getting into such a fun class, knowing such amazing friends, I fell in love with NY. I love NY not just because of my class, it's also because of nice and caring teachers and Mr Kwek! He's really a good principal. Anyway, other than speeches and prize giving, there were videos too. Yuanting cried when saw the video on orientation. I managed to fought back my tears.

After the ceremony, we went for refreshments and the class went down to the Grand Stand to take photos. We played around for more than 1 hour, took lots of photos. It had been such a long time since I last had so much fun with almost the whole class. It was really heartwarming to see the smiles of everyone. I will always remember this day.

Half of the class went Kovan's superbowl. I played one game only, and as usual, I'm bad at it. While watching them play, I suddenly realized it was the last official school day, last official day we would spent together as a class, as 0621. I started to feel sad. I tried hard to control my emotions. I wanted to bid goodbye to everyone, ending this last official day seeing everyone with smiles on their faces. Yet, I broke down just before the day ended.

Many things have happened these 2 years, especially this year. It wasn't a smooth sailing one for me. I think I've grown up a lot. I'm glad to have build some wonderful friendships. I'll keep all these memories with me. Thank you, people.

2007-10-07T16:42:00.000+08:00

To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

2007-10-06T00:56:00.000+08:00

Never take someone for granted,
Hold every person close to your heart,
Because you might wake up one day and realize,
That you have lost a diamond,
While you were too busy collecting stones.

2007-10-04T22:09:00.000+08:00

If it's yours, it'll always be yours, even if you let it go.
If it's not yours, no matter how hard you try to keep it, one day it'll still leave you.

2007-09-19T10:06:00.000+08:00

Physics paper 1 left. Finally prelim's going to be over soon. I'm tired. Really tired. Yet, it is this busy life that keeps me go on and stop my imagination from running too far away (although it still does most of the time). Everyday, I'll wish for A's to end soon, so that I can enjoy my holidays and do things that I always wanted to do. But now, I wish that I can stay here forever, so that I can give excuses to myself not to face it. It's just too scary.

Will it still be the same?

2007-09-06T22:15:00.000+08:00

Someone has enlightened me. I finally got to understand lots of things. All these while, I've misplaced my priorities in life. I did many many things that I regret alot. I wished I can turn back time and I would definitely not repeat my mistake. But it's all over and all I can do now is to look forward to the future and not dwell on it anymore. I'll definitely be a changed person. Just want to thank those who have been there for me always. I realised I always tend to hurt those that dote on me most, taking them for granted. Sorry for throwing temper, being stubborn and rude at times. Really really sorry for everything, and thanks for being there. It's really only that few people that will always be there. I love all of you =)

2007-08-27T12:56:00.000+08:00

It's time to get back on my feet.
Can't afford to slack anymore.
63 more days to A's.
Ahhh.

2007-08-07T10:59:00.000+08:00

I'm beginning to not like going to school.
When I find the meaning of it again?

2007-08-05T12:50:00.000+08:00

不能说的秘密

Composer: 周杰倫

Lyricist: 方文山
Notes: Theme song for the movie "Secret"

冷咖啡离开了杯垫

我忍住的情绪在很後面

拼命想挽回的从前

在我脸上依旧清晰可见

最美的不是下雨天

是曾与你躲过雨的屋檐

回忆的画面

在荡着秋千

梦开始不甜

你说把爱渐渐

放下会走更远

又何必去改变

已错过的时间

你用你的指尖

阻止我说再见

想像你在身边

在完全失去之前

你说把爱渐渐

放下会走更远

或许命运的签

只让我们遇见

只让我们相恋

这一季的秋天

飘落後才发现

这幸福的碎片

要我怎麽捡

2007-08-05T12:44:00.000+08:00

huijuan's artwork

2007-07-29T11:00:00.000+08:00

5 weeks to prelims and I'm still so lagging behind. I've been constantly reminding myself about it and so, stop giving me anymore naggings. I know how much I've put in for the mid-years, I'm depressed enough to know that my efforts didn't pay off. "It's the last lap and we should not give up now", "Yes, you can do it", that is what I said to my friends to encourage them. But I can't convince myself. Just when I tried to pick up myself to work hard for prelims, and not allowing my results to affect me, they come and nag. I know, I know. Please just stop nagging, will you?

I wished I can go back to my childhood days. I wished to jump around on my parents' bed with my sis again. I wished to be piggyback by my dad again. I wished that my life can be just about rushing to complete my spelling so that I could watch my favourite television show, argue my way through so as to persuade my mom to get chocolates for me.
And not to be disgusted by how complicated some people can be. Not to face this battle of feelings and emotions.
Words are left unsaid. Feelings are buried deep in the heart. I am going to face this alone this time. No one is able help this time...

2007-07-22T11:55:00.000+08:00

see that two idiots who are in red?
that's us doing yoga.

lol. me and char joined Shopathon. and we got a free yoga session. i can't stop laughing when i saw char in the mirror doing the same awkward action as me.

THE N.E.X.T. CHALLENGE!!
We sent two teams, "So I don't know" - consisting of JunAn, Wilson, Tricia and Sarah, and "Red Bean Buns" - consisting of Michelle, Yanhao, Hekming and me. We had to run, jump, swim, think, throw and eat. Lol. And Red Bean Buns got the sixth position out of 30 or 40 over teams I think. But they only provide prizes until the fifth position. Quite disappointing but anyway the most important thing is that we all had lots of fun!=)

Me and Charis did this after we got tired from playing tennis.

Finally we got our class tee! After such a long wait. Lol it was so funny when we saw Mr Lee was wearing similar colour that day. Took a photo with him. I'm enjoying Chem lesson more and more =)

2007-07-22T11:42:00.000+08:00

There's too much to forget, too much to let go.

Just want to cherish everything I have right now.

Time is running out.

No more regrets this time.

Keep on going.

i love rainy days.

2007-06-21T22:51:00.000+08:00

It was certainly a different birthday. I'm officially 18! Omg, i'm old. Lol.

This is the first time I ever spend my birthday studying. And hopefully it'll be the last time. I wanted to go out and do things that I enjoy. But...well, not now. Not this year.

Shan't elaborate much about my actual feelings. I just want to thank many many people.

Here are those who message me around midnight. It was really sweet =)
MinJun, HuiJuan, YanHao, Tricia, Edmund, WeiWei, JinHao, WenYi, Simon, JunAn, Randy, Charmain, Jack, YuanTing, JiaHui, Dwayne, Michelle, Nanthini, Jeremy.

and of cos not forgetting those who wished me later in the day.
WanLing, ShuHeng, Sarah, BaoBao, Jenny, Sheena, YongHuan, Angie, SokHua, Uncle, YongCai, HuiTian, BingHong, YuJia, Nicholas, PingChong, Wilson, Joel, Dustin, JiMei, Mervyn, Joshua(Lam), HekMing, Sheryl, Sharon(Ser), Shioks, Kenneth, Leon.

And sher! I received your e-card. It was really cute and sweet, thanks! Miss you so much. By the way, I've sent the letter!=)

Tric, 2 yh, dwayne, yt and hekky. Thanks for the super creamy chocolate cake and it was really a pleasant surprise.

And jen! *hugs* thanks for the cake from Andersens icecream.

Char, my 15 years best friend, thanks for being there =) and the present. Lol I actually laughed when I saw it. Thanks.

Shioks, thanks for your lovely postcard with handwriting that I could understand (surprisingly). (Lol jk)

JSH, thanks for the cake the other day. I really didn't expect that =D

Specially to tric and yt, thanks for pei-ing me through the sleepless night (okay maybe halfway through. Lol.)

It hadn't been a smooth-sailing year for me. I'm glad to have friends that cared. This is the best present =)

2007-06-18T20:43:00.001+08:00

Went for Famine Camp 2007 held at Republic Poly from 16June to 17June. We had our "last meal" at Causeway Point before the famine start. I was one of the 8 who were selected for the firing of whatever-that-thing is called during the opening ceremony. I felt so dumb upon knowing that the girl who stood right beside me was actually shukman's cousin! I introduced myself to her before the ceremony started and it was so diulian that I could not recognised her when I saw her just a few days ago. To think that I even said hi when I stayed over at shukman's house that day.
Anyway, the famine started at 2pm and would end at 8pm the next day. We got into our different countries and we were so lucky that all of us were in the same country - Lesotho! I've never heard of that country before. We were to group ourselves into 6 families within each country. Yanhao was our family head, with Yuanting, Michelle and Pingchong as the adults, Tricia, Grace, Farrell and me as the children. Some of us were assigned to be crippled, or infected with HIV. Each family was given 16 "dollars" and we were to go out to work and study so as to support our county.
At first, we tried going around together, but realised that we got our own work and duty to do, so we went on our own. We had to queue up for education and after doing the task they assigned and passed, we were allowed to look for jobs. They would assigned us the jobs that suit the different education that we had completed. It was quite cool. For fishing, we had to throw down one of our shoe and hook it up. We had to find 30 green beans in the grass with mud for farming. There were many different jobs, including illegal jobs. We still had to go for vaccination and stuff like that, experiencing the situation that people in the poverty countries faced.
We had mass reflection at night. Lights were off and we were to keep quiet for more than half an hour. Candles were lit and we took turns to place them in the middle of our circle. We were to reflect about the stories shared, and the rest of the things that happened throughout the day. I actually cried when I watched one of the videos showed previously. It was really sad to see what little children at the other side of the world are going through...
They total up all scores at the end of the day, and Lesotho had won a packet of chocolate milk drink for each of us! I was soooo hungry at that time that I felt like just gulping down everything. But I thought of the stories of the poor children, I got no more appetite. Chelle and YT kept asking me and tric to drink the chocolate drink as our heads hurt a lot due to lack of sugar. Finally, we decided to open just a packet and shared among 4 of us before our bedtime. We did not shower as there was not enough time and space for us. We headed to bed straight.
I think I was the first to sleep and last to wake, just like kayak camp =P But at least this time, I didn't hug anyone! Lol. We washed up and had our "breakfast" - soy bean milk. I never liked soy bean, so drank a bit only. We had some workout after that and my whole body was aching. Then, we got ready and set off for newspaper collection at Tampines area. This time, it was surprisingly not so tiring as the last newspaper collection NY organised for us. I thought I would just had no energy to move as I had no food for the last 20 plus hours. It was fun! Lol.
I had really a good sleep throughout the journey to and fro. After going back to RP, me and yt decided to take a bath. We had nothing much to do for the next few hours. So I slept again.

Around evening time, we had a concert and it was count down time!

And finally...30.00.00!! Yeah! We've all completed the 30-hour famine! Lol. But at that moment, I no longer feel any hunger, so I got not much appetite when the BK fish burger was placed in front of me. I still ate it anyway, and I regretted after that. I think I ate too fast and I got a big headache after that, on my way home. I'm sorry if I was harsh on anyone, I don't mean it, just bad mood due to the headache =(

This is a picture of our family. =)

and with Kammy, our country in-charge.

2007-05-27T11:59:00.000+08:00

My sister is going for exchange programme tomorrow.
10 days!
She has never gone overseas alone before.
The house will be so quiet without her.
Although there'll be no one snatching chocolates with me, no one fighting for the bathroom with me, I WILL MISS HER SOOOO MUCH!
Although there's chem SPA tomorrow morning, I'm going to send her off before that.
It's so cool, going to airport early in the morning then rush to school for exam.
Lol.
Okay got to have my brunch le.
Bye!=)

2007-05-26T19:18:00.000+08:00

It's Nanyang Tennis Open Mixed Doubles Finals today!!
I can't believe we made it to the finals, since I just started learning tennis about 1 month ago.
Thanks Edmund for coaching me!
you have been very patient and so sorry for keep hitting the balls out of the court and made you have to take for me.
Paiseh! Lol.
It has been quite a long way, from don't know what, to quarter-finals, met Randy and Novi at semi then finally Kenneth and Charis at finals.
Got first runner-up in the end.
At first I thought once we got to semi, I'll be happy enough, since I'm really a bad player.
At least I think I'm improving =P
It was a close match for the first big set during the finals.
But anyway, we fought till the last point!
Really enjoyed and learned a lot.
Lol so happy =)

2007-05-13T19:39:00.000+08:00

F A M I L Y
I ran into a stranger as he passed by, 'Oh excuse me please' was my reply. He said, 'Please excuse me too; I wasn't watching for you.' We were very polite, this stranger and I. We went on our way and we said goodbye. But at home a different story is told, How we treat our loved ones, young and old. Later that day, cooking the evening meal, My son stood beside me very still. When I turned, I nearly knocked him down. 'Move out of the way,' I said with a frown. He walked away, his little heart broken. I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken. While I lay awake in bed, God's still small voice came to me and said, 'While dealing with a stranger, common courtesy you use, but the family you love, you seem to abuse. Go and look on the kitchen floor, You'll find some flowers there by the door. Those are the flowers he brought for you. He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue. He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise, you never saw the tears that filled his little eyes.' By this time, I felt very small, And now my tears began to fall. I quietly went and knelt by his bed; 'Wake up, little one, wake up,' I said. 'Are these the flowers you picked for me?' He smiled, 'I found 'em, out by the tree. I picked 'em because they're pretty like you. I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue.' I said, 'Son, I'm very sorry for the way I acted today; I shouldn't have yelled at you that way.' He said, 'Oh, Mom, that's okay. I love you anyway.' I said, 'Son, I love you too, and I do like the flowers, especially the blue.' FAMILY
Are you aware that if we died tomorrow, the company that we are working for could easily replace us in a matter of days. But the family we left behind will feel the loss for the rest of their lives. And come to think of it, we pour ourselves more into work than into our own family, an unwise investment indeed, don't you think? So what is behind the story? Do you know what the word FAMILY means? FAMILY = (F)ATHER (A)ND (M)OTHER (I) (L)OVE (Y)OU

2007-05-03T21:36:00.000+08:00

i love my friends.

2007-04-29T14:00:00.000+08:00

It's a new challenge ahead. BE STRONG!!

As we grow up, we meet new people and have a new circle of friends, leading on a new life. But does it mean that we forget about old friends? It takes effort to maintain a friendship. We can be very close for a period of time, but it would be no point if we lost touch for the rest of our lives after we go on to the next chapter of our life. No matter how busy we get, it's nice to just take some effort to catch up with people we were once so close with. If nothing is done, the distance between each other would just get further and further. We can't take things for granted, let alone our friends. So, treasure all who once made a difference in our lives!

Char, you made me really happy that day. It has been such a long time since we last had misunderstanding. Years, i guess? I feel that i'm so stupid to get angry cos of such little thing. I couldn't control and told you straight at you that I was angry. You clarified and I feel so embarrassed that it was just a misunderstanding. I was so surprised that you were so touched by it that you actually cried! You said my little action can show so much, about how true our friendship is. I was so touched by your words. I feel so blessed to have you. It's almost 15 years since we know each other. Just to tell you, you are not alone. Just be yourself, be strong, don't have to be scared. You have me. Jiayou!=)

2007-04-23T00:33:00.000+08:00

time flies!
it's mid of april already.
it seemed like it was yesterday that Chinese New Year has just gone =(
lots of things have happened.
and everything happened so fast and sudden, even so dramatic that i don't believe it's actually happening.
until now that i paused to take a look at my life, then i realised how much time has passed.
mid-year exam is coming really soon.
my results for block test is really bad, so it's really time for me to start on my revision now.
but i have no motivation and mood at all!
things are getting complicated and it can't stop bothering me.
i really need a break, to get me into the right mood and attitude towards things.
i can't go on like this.

2007-04-18T21:57:00.000+08:00

jibin, you must be strong.
you can do this.
no one can help you now.

you are all alone.

BE STRONG.

2007-03-25T23:22:00.000+08:00

25 march - dragonboat competition

playground is so fun =)

2007-03-22T22:18:00.000+08:00

Why are all these happening to me? I hate it! Go away!!

2007-03-03T20:44:00.000+08:00

Chinese New Year 2007!!
it is the first year i went malaysia to visit my relatives there.

lion dance at ahma house

my favourite part of CNY - gamble!! esp mahjong.. haha..

reunion dinner at malaysia

my family tree

praying at some temple

we saw a rainbow on our way back to singapore

2007-03-03T20:25:00.000+08:00

another photo of newspaper collection.. (thanks hek!)

THE ONE competition!

0621 CNY reunion dinner =)

massaging

Sakae!

love message from minjun.. haha..

2007-02-07T00:49:00.000+08:00

Newspaper collection! ~ 3 Feb

Sher's house stayover!!

lazy to type. let the photos do the job.

yum~!! my favourite!

2007-01-27T00:53:00.000+08:00

okay.. updates!!
haha..
i can somehow foresee my timetable for the rest of the year already.

every week is just so routine.

gracehaven tuition, mavis tuition, netball training, jap lesson...

tutorials are piling, and tests every now and then, with block test coming really soon.

sigh.

time passes really fast.

last friday, we were supposed to have games day.

but at the last minute, it rained!

so it was cancelled.

my class then went to amk for dinner and went shopping at the newly open ntuc.

haha it was so fun!

we were like one big family going out shopping.

so nice =)

the latest happening now is THE ONE!

the annual singing competition for our school.

yuanting, minjun, aaron, simon, junAn took part in it.

today was the audition.

the rest of us were not allowed to go in to listen.

so we camped outside the LT.

haha we had lots of fun outside too, trying hard to listen by hiding behind the door or trying find ways to sneak in.

on hearing that there were still a long way before it was their turn, we went out to buy dinner for them.

but when we came back, they finished singing already!

so sad that we missed their performance.
but luckily rahrah got record down.

nice leh.

hope they'll get in the next round!! =D

oh ya..

went to seoul garden with JSH, except hj.

i didn't know there's seoul garden in bugis.

haha.

i kept laughing throughout the dinner.

tiring leh, have to eat and laugh.

somemore when i was super super full, they said stupid things then make me laugh even more.

i almost vomit out everything.

couldn't stand properly, which reminded me of that time we went sakae.

haha.

sigh but so sad sher's leaving soon.

so fast leh.

suddenly realised there's not much time for us to spend together already.

sighh.

kayak!!

kbox

sentosa

2007-01-17T22:06:00.000+08:00

this is my only regret in my jc life.
just wanna get out of it soon.

2007-01-02T20:23:00.000+08:00

kayaking was soooooo fun!!

had a five-day camp with my beloved class last week.
attained one and two star kayak cert during the camp =)
it's really a super fun and memorable one.

we had one and two star crash course during the first three days of the camp.
had bbq for the first night.
couldn't finish lots of food.
saved it for the next day.
woke up in the middle of the night, hearing lots of people talking.
i thought it's morning already.
then realised it's only 2plus.
couldn't get back to sleep.
stone around for around half and ate some biscuits before forcing myself back to sleep.
had a good rest then.
think the girls had a tough time trying to wake me up.
and minjun complained that i hug her until she cant move about.
haha.
had bread and maggie for the rest of the days.
first time i found white bread delicious.
lols.

learnt capsize drill and the different ways of steering and stuff like that during the three-day course.
it rained all day long.
kept shivering.
luckily got minjun, yuanting, michelle, tricia they all to hug me =)
love you girls.
until the third day afternoon when the rain got really heavy and that everyone could not take it anymore - everyone was shivering.
chris, the instructor, decided to have a change of plan.
we had theory lesson in the afternoon and we were off on our own to rest to prepare for the expedition the next day.
most of the guys went home to sleep that third night.
left only all 7 girls and 4 other guys.
we went out to changi beach to pitch our tents and stayed there for the night.
had been sleeping in SSC for the first two nights.
we had quite a tough time pitching the tents cos the wind was very strong and it was raining.
finally it was time to sleep, and i realised the side of the tent was wet.
i thought it's only a small part of it, so didn't take much notice.
but then, i woke up many times in the middle of the night, realising that whole of my legs were wet, followed by my butt and half of my back.
it was cold and uncomfortable sleeping in a pool of water.
but there was no more space already.
so had no choice but to force myself back to sleep.

time for expedition! (day 4)
we were late again.
so had to change to doubles.
partner with yanhao.
we packed our food in our kayaks and set off.
kayaked 18km around ubin to pasir ris beach.
stopped by corny island to have our lunch.
the weather was surprisingly good for the whole day.
we paddled a lot a lot and realised we are still at the same spot.
haha cos the current and wind is against us.
so it was very tiring.
once, when we raft-up, i was busy taking out my bottle to drink, so i asked yanhao to help me hold on to my paddle.
when we break raft, we then realised that one paddle was lost, yh thought all along he was holding on to his paddle, so he let go.
and it was floating somewhere away in the middle of the sea.
haha so stupid.
so he took my paddle to kayak back to save that paddle.
haha.

we kayak till early evening liddat then reached pasir ris le.
pitched tents and played cards and shower and eat then sleep.
suddenly felt very emo that night cos it was the last night of the camp.
and we had to go back to our schooling life and had to study to prepare for A's.
that is so sian.

anyway, i woke up on my own the next morning =P
then cooked breakfast and prepared to set off back to changi beach.
we took the direct route and it was with the current and wind.
so we didn't kayak much.
i was still eating honeystars on the kayak =P
haha.
then we continued to learn a bit more skills to complete the whole of two star course before going to shower.
everyone was sun-burnt.
some people burnt until very funny.
like chelle got this line on her forehead cos she wore bandana.
her face was red and her forehead was white.
haha.
half of her ears were red and half was white also.
so cute.
never see such ears before.
haha.
joel got this distinct watch shape on his wrist also.
so cool.

super tired.
went home shower, stone and eat then went to bed already.
really enjoyed the camp a lot a lot.
i'll definitely miss this five days.
my only regret is that we didn't manage to take much photos.
it'll be damn cool la if we were able to record every single moment of this memorable experience down.

i want to thank every single person in this camp.
the people who organised - joel and michelle,
anyone and everyone who helped in one way or another,
minjun, sokhua, yuanting, tricia, sarah, michelle for lending me toothpaste, facial foam, tissue, sleeping bag, and things which i forget to bring.
everyone who take care of me during this whole camp, helping me carry stuff, cook for me, lend me things and everything.
love all of you! =D

2006-12-25T10:59:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!! =)

every year, my christmas will be different. i love the way this year went!

christmas eve, i woke up at 10:40am. i was supposed to meet my class at 11am. super sleepy cos i had work at swiss the previous night. sorry people! for being late. but of cos there's many others who are even later. haha. after everyone has reached, we went to the rooftop of esplanade there. we started our exchange of present ceremony. haha. give present le, then must help the person wear christmas hat. lols then the guys very funny. all don't want to wear and keep trying to run away from it. haha then end up we make everyone wear the hat and walk to marina square. it's so cool! and fun~!! lol!

after that, i went to meet yk then we walked around a bit then went yuki no yaki to have buffet dinner. eat until my stomach like so big liddat. so i hurry wear jacket to try to cover my stomach to make it not so obvious. haha. then that idiot play that stupid game and make me walk so much. it was like still so early, then we went vivo. nothing much there actually. then i was having a slight headache, maybe lack of sleep. so we just went to rest at some fastfood place. i fell asleep there. very nice to sleep lehh. haha. sleep until 11pm liddat then the person say they are closing for the day already. so we then went orchard. don't know where to walk and we just follow the crowd all the way. people kept spraying and spraying. and it's super squeezy!!hard to breathe even. people kept pushing also. i don't even know the countdown had started. and there were two times of "10 9 8 . . . "i dont know which one is the actual one. lols. then after the countdown, it was a tough way out of the place. everyone was pushing and pushing.

it's my first time counting down at orchard. my mom usually dont allow one. it's quite okay la. can say that it's a bit boring also. unless can spray people then fun! haha. but the feeling of celebrating it outside and at home or at friends' house is different la. it's a special feeling =P

i'll be staying at home today. gonna bake logcake with my mom. i feel very bad to my family. i'm seldom at home, and like neglect them a lot. and i'm going camp tmr. will not be seeing them for next five days. so have to spend this day with them. and have to rest and sleep more. my darkrings are getting deeper and deeper. sometimes, i scared myself when i look into the mirror. haha. i need a break now.

oh ya, speaking of kayaking trip tmr, i'm really excited now! but i'm so not prepared yet. haven pack anything, and i'm still in the christmas mood. it had been such a long time since i had a camp. at least one year. i miss guides camp, and of cos the sec 3 camp with all my friends =) this time, i believe it'll be the most memorable one. with almost the whole class there. omg it'll be real fun!! sighh but so sad not everyone can join us there. hope u all can come down for the bbq and campfire!! =D

shioks is coming back and the 30th. then we'll have sleepover to countdown on 31st!! finally all of us are in singapore by then. yeahhh look forward to it too! =P

2006-12-14T10:09:00.000+08:00

had been working almost everyday last week.
i'm going to polar cake shop for work later on.
it's my first day there!
i'm afraid that i cannot remember the price, flavour, and the main ingredients for the logcakes we will be promoting.
at swiss, i got a such a bad memory until when i turned around after asking someone what drink he wants, immediately i can forget who i was talking to just a few seconds ago!
oh yar, i'm a bit qi with swiss also.
i haven got my pay!!
and the pay of three of the days i worked have expired! (cos within 10 days must collect the pay for the day you work)
means i have to dunno go to where and sign dunno what before i can get my pay.
it's so troublesome la.
tomorrow going to work again and hopefully will be able to collect.

2006-12-02T11:22:00.000+08:00

first day at work.
went to meet baobao after shopping with huijuan and sher.
she helped me put make up, then i keep wipe here wipe there.
cos cannot get used to having powder on my face.
and i looked like ghost!
then i ended up washing everything off just before i went in to sign in.

me, chelle, yanhao, hek and dwayne went to queue up to sign in first.
wahhh the queue was like super long.
queue until outside leh.
there was someone cutting queue and got scolded by people at the back.
so when aaron came, we told him better not to cut queue, then he had to stand at the back there.
finally, when it was our turn, the security told us the guys only can report after 6pm.
cos their shift was supposed to start at 7pm.
haha then they all sian diao, had to join aaron with his queue.
lols.
then me and chelle just went in and got our name tags and signed in.
we got our uniform, then the person brought us to change.
the changing room was like chaotic!
everyone was like changing very openly.
we found a seat and started changing also.
luckily it's skirt, then can change faster and easier.
the worst part was the stocking.
me and chelle were like pulling and pulling then don't know how to wear the stupid stocking.
it's like it would tear anytime.
and the feeling was weird, with some ticklish thing around my legs.

after everything was done, the girl brought us to our respective ballrooms.
then there was briefing.
they attached me to this auntie.
she kept on mumbling to herself.
i also don't know what she was talking about, then i "huh" then she didn't bother.
then when i didn't do something correctly then she kept blaming me.
so irritating.
then the whole day i was like "sorry sorry" to everyone at every single thing.

anyway, before the wedding, we were standing outside to serve cocktail.
my wrist was like breaking from holding the drinks.
then i kept changing hands.
super tiring.
at that time i was like looking around for the time, starting to count down already.
but the good thing is can observe the different kinds of people.
the bride is quite pretty.
the groom is cute.
they seemed very young.

finally, dinner was starting soon.
we all went in to get ready.
the whole night i was pouring tea, getting the respective drinks for the people, saying "excuse me" and "sorry".
some people kept ordering drinks one after another, make me have to walk all the way to the bar to get their beer or wine then walk back to serve and walk to get another drink from the bar again.
but actually i would rather walk around rather than stand there and got lectured by the auntie for not doing anything.
it's like they don't want tea or any refill already, every 5 min she wants me to refill for them.

the food was so tempting!
i didn't had dinner cos not enough time.
towards the later part of the wedding, some guests from the 3 tables i took left already.
then there were lots of leftovers.
clean ones of cos.
then some of the people walked pass me and asked if i want to eat.
i was so hungry, of cos i want!
haha.
so i followed them to the kitchen behind and kope the food.
so nice! and fun! haha.
i ate chicken, ice cream and cake.
and it was the first time i drink soft drinks like plain water like that, gulped down one.
too thirsty already.

FINALLY.
it's 11:30pm!!
i went to sign out, then don't know where to go and change to return the uniform.
i saw a group of people, so just followed them all the way.
reached the toilet and saw chelle.
she just took out her stockings.
then she asked me the stockings can keep anot, or throw away.
haha.
girl ah girl.

then aaron called, say they are at the canteen and call us to go over cos got free food.
haha.
then after very long then we managed to get to the canteen.
the place there is really a maze.
but then that time, there's no more food already.
if not must wait till 2am i think.
then so the guys went to change then we went to sign out.

okay the exciting part is here.

we came out of the hotel at around 12am.
then dwayne went to meet his dad to fetch him home. by car =X
the rest of us were like figuring out how to go home, cos the last train was gone already.
then we saw bus 130 from far, then dunno who say that bus can get to amk interchange.
so we all ran for the bus.
board the bus feeling safe, at least from amk everyone can get home easily.
BUT.
suddenly the bus stopped at some ulu place.
the uncle say that's the last stop.
the so called bus stop is those kind with only one stand indicating it as bus stop that kind.
i then saw the board on the side of the bus.
it says shenton way.
we took the wrong direction!

we then walked out to the road and started walking along the road.
they said can walk to vivocity.
so we decided to go there and eat.
then we walk and walk and walk.
maybe around 1hour like that.
all of us haven't been sitting down for like hours, and now had to walk for so long.
THEN.
we realised we are not heading towards vivo.
it's the wrong direction AGAIN.
they say we are near tuas already.
i also dunno where is it.
it's just some faraway place which i never been to before la.
we were like stuck in some construction area.
wahhh then everyone super sian already.
finally decide to take taxi.

another problem.
we got 5 ppl.
then the taxi drivers all very scared got caught.
then finally we managed to persuade one uncle to allow five ppl de.

then we got to amk macs.
then eat a bit then go home le.
chelle's dad fetch her, yanhao walk home.
then me, aaron and hekming had no choice but to take taxi again.
but hek different direction as us, so take differently.
i then reached home at 2am.

it was so exciting!
although tiring, fun leh.
haha =)
earn money is really not easy.

2006-11-30T21:01:00.000+08:00

i'm starting work tomorrow!!
gonna earn a lot a lot.
i desperately need lots of money.
have to pay for kayak expedition, which i heard is about $250!
and christmas is coming..
i want to get lots of new stuff!!
bags, shoes, wallet, clothes... everything!
actually, i'm starting to enjoy my holidays now.
there's activities planned for me everyday.
it's so nice to feel belonged and loved.
thank you, everyone! =)
i love all of u.

2006-11-27T11:56:00.000+08:00

i realised i'm not as strong, as independent as i thought i can be.

please don't force me to lock myself away from the rest of the world.

that is the last thing i wish to do.

but you are pushing me nearer to it.

someone

help

2006-11-26T21:17:00.000+08:00

6E chalet

2006-11-24T11:27:00.000+08:00

this is a stage everyone would have to go through. be strong. it will be over soon. you can do it =)

i am proceeding to a new chapter of my life. i've come to accept that things have changed, and won't never ever be the same again. so... =)

i've signed up for work at swissotel. hopefully can start work next week =P also, i will be working as a sales promoter for polar cake shop for 4 of the days in dec. can u believe it? sales promoter! haha. hope i can do it well anyway. i'm going to keep myself super super busy this holiday. i don't want to waste it again. i don't want my life to be meaningless and aimless. i'm excited about working firstly is because can earn money =) lols. and of course, i would be able to learn a lot new things and gain experience and it's fun to go to work with friends!=D now, i already learn to treasure the time i have with my family as much as possible. because, i know, once i start work at swiss, i may not be able to see my parents at all. cos when they are working in the day, i will be sleeping, and when they are at home at night, i would be out to work. and i won't be able to have dinner with them that often le =(

okay la. got to go chalet already. even pri sch also got chalet. where is 0621?!

2006-11-17T11:51:00.000+08:00

thursday was a long day. first, i went to school feeling happy. finally i do not have to walk so fast since i was still quite early. had been late for lectures everyday. haha. reached the gate at 7:43am when lecture starting at 7:45am. as i was walking, i felt very weird as there was like not many people around like that. when i reached atrium, i saw some of my class people sitting there. then i realised physics lecture was cancelled! everyone else knew about it except for us. felt so stupid. lols. my class had the most number of people went to school early cos we didn't know physics was cancelled.

anyway, we waited for like one and a half hours before the next lecture start. sian. then after everything, we went to swissotel to check out the part time job thing. imagine how cool it would be like if almost whole class going to work together there. haha but that's impossible la.

went home to shower after that. i hurt my knees during netball game the day before, so i could not slide down on the bus seat to sleep more comfortably. had to sit up straight so that my knees would not touch the back of the seat in front. sleep until whole body aching.

after showering, i went to meet char at bishan library. we talked about the types of job we can do and where to look for them. char checked out the job agency as well. i want to work!! i need money! so broke now =(

after that, i went to meet joel and junAn to join the rest on NSL to get to marina bay. this was the very first time whole class was present in an outing! everyone single one!! so cool! we occupied four tables. with all the girls at one table. the guys kept coming over to kope our food. haha this showed that we are great cooks =P haha. rahrah and darling minjun were busy peeling prawns for everyone. chelle and bao2 were busy with the crabs and the funny seafood creatures. yuanting was busy with her fries and soup. ahma was busy cooking and eating. tricia and sokhua were busy helping out with our messy and busy table. and i was busy feeding everyone! haha. so fun!

we all like eat non-stop until 10 plus. the guys went to play arcade at around 8 plus, so me and minjun hurried over to kope their table and started cooking even more food. haha. oh ya aaron's soup very nice leh. he put a lot herbal stuff i think, then sweet sweet one, so nice! i never stayed and ate until so late before. normally we would have stopped by 9 plus and went to arcade or pool for the rest of the time, this time stayed and ate till 11pm! haha. really made my money worth it =)

today is tricia san's birthday!! so sad i can't go for the celebration. anyway, glad to hear that all of u enjoyed yourselves. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, tric! =)
pon chem lecture to go to the airport to send shioks and huijuan off. huijuan went off first with her OCIP people. so good, can go OCIP. i a bit regret that i didn't go for it, although it would be very busy, it is a good experience to gain. sigh nvm it's over. anyway, then we waited for sher to come back. we started to get very excited, didn't know how to welcome her. we thought of many ways, thinking of want to just sit there and let her see us or pop out from somewhere to scare her or what. (cos we are not supposed to know that she's coming back today.) haha then we took the airport news letter and started stapling them together. cos the cover of the news letter was very striking, so most likely she would be able to spot, especially with such a big piece. then we wrote some stuff on it and we went to hide behind a pillar.

waited.
waited.
waited.
and..
waited.
FINALLY.
we saw her. omg. then we started crab-walk out. haha. then she saw us and came running towards us and HUG!! wahhh sooooooo long didn't see sher le. her face was like super red and she started crying. jenny also. haha. then chat chat for a while then she got to go already. we are going out on monday!! yeah! finally. haha.

2006-11-14T23:16:00.000+08:00

sunday.
went huijuan's house. we bought a bottle of dye, wanting to highlight our hair. each person $3.30 only leh! lols. we took quite some time to choose the colour we want then finally got to huijuan's house. i helped huimei to cut her hair!! haha. i was very worried that i won't do a good job then i'll feel very guilty de. last time helped yuanting cut her fringe only, this time was the whole thing! haha then i very scared. as i was cutting, huijuan kept complaining i cut until very slow. stupid.

there was lots of hair on the toilet floor. we started cleaning the toilet by clearing up the hair on the floor. suddenly they said that we looked like maids. then we started using the big clips to clip up our hair to look stupid. huijuan is pro at making herself looking stupid but quite nice at the same time. haha.
anyway, finally, we started to dye. oh-ya-bei-ya-som. i was the odd one out, so they helped me highlight first. huijuan helped to put the colour while huimei helped to wrap up them dyed parts. finally, time to wash off the dye. three of us went to the toilet. two of them started helping me wash my hair. they scrubbed until very shuang. if only i can lie down and let them like that help me wash. haha. after that we went to blow my hair dry. we were so amazed that there was colour change. when dyeing or even washing that time also don't have much difference. it was only on blowing dry then can. so cool. haha very suaku la.

after that, it was huimei's turn then followed by huijuan. we repeated all the steps again. it's so not fair! they kept complaining that they got too much hair, while i want also don't have. i'm losing hair nowadays. must go for treatment someday already. haha.

by the time we finished dyeing everyone's, it was already around nine plus i think. at first wanted to watch vcd, but i could not go home so late, so we went out to have dinner before going home. i scared my mom see and will scold, so i tied up my hair, hoping that it will be less obvious. actually mine is already the least obvious as compared to two of them cos i still have to go to school.

had lessons today. it wasn't boring at all. haha. maybe cos got minjun and tricia beside me, entertaining me. throughout the 3 hours lectures, tricia was so high and crazy, making me keep laughing at nothing also. after that, we went opposite ZH there eat tom yum noodles. then went to PS to watch "FINAL CALL". 16 of us. haha it's my first time watch a scary movie ended up laughing. got a few parts very funny, then sarah started laughing then i cannot control then laugh also. we tried hard to control cos it was like so spoiler if we laugh in the middle of some scary parts. overall, i think the movie quite okay la. not bad =)

got lots of plans for this holidays. don't want to waste it. i want to work! anyone got lobang tell me!! and there's pri sch chalet! so sad mount ophir trip is cancelled =( change to kayaking i think. anyway, must thank joel, michelle and the rest for working so hard to plan all these for us =) then still got making of christmas gifts to sell for gracehaven. the ic still haben reply me!! cannot plan anything yet. then there's still netball 4nations dunno what de. also, OGL training! and of cos, sher is coming back!!!!!!!! yeah yeah yeah! omg. time really flies. let me count... is it 9 months? so long didn't see her already! yeah finally!! =) lols. but shioks going back HK till end of dec i think. then huijuan's going ocip for two weeks. looking forward to the day where 6 of us can meet together again! =)

2006-11-10T22:56:00.000+08:00

FINALLY, IT'S OVER!!!
we are finally done with PW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D

lols. had OP today. i was like super nervous before that. stomach felt really weird before that. when i was sitting there, and angie was saying her speech, my heart almost jumped out of my mouth. i think i paused quite a little, especially when i was wondering why the assessors kept smiling to themselves. for Q&A, they posted 3 questions for me. urgh. but i think that's the most relaxed Q&A session. i think i was more nervous during the rehearsals when Ms Shahida was the one posting questions to me.

anyway, it's finally over! =)
great job everyone!!

went to pasir ris park with my class after OP. oh ya, before that we went to the coffee shop outside NY. i ordered my food already and went back to sit. sarah suddenly said, "there's a mouse!" i raised my legs from the ground immediately and looked around. i saw a tail. i was imagining that it was a disgusting big rat. but it was a small one. quite cute actually, but i still do find it very scary. i just kept looking at it to make sure it didn't come near us. just when i thought it was gone, i saw it running towards us again! i wasn't sure if i was screaming or what, at that time i only know that all my attention was on the mouse. suddenly i lost sight of it, and i felt that my chair jerked a bit. i thought the mouse climbing up my chair leh. i hurried get off, took my bag and ran further in the coffee shop, with the other girls. until then, i then realised that there was a lot of people looking at us. wah diulian! then we changed seats with the guys. i lost appetite already.

anyway, we then took a super long ride to pasir ris. we played "ice and water" at the maze again. there were more people this time and it was more exciting! imagine there were 18 people in the small maze with 3 catchers. everyone was like running around, screaming. haha. so fun! everyone got really tired and some ended up volunteered to get caught so that they didn't have to run. we then went back to the shelter to take a rest.

guess what? we saw worms! on some of our bags. wahh. disgusting. wonder how they got there. after getting rid of the worms, we went to play the disc that went round and round, and some went to the spider web thing. then it started raining. spoiler. sigh then no choice, we then went back to white sands. some worms followed us there. yucks. then we all went home after eating.

nothing much happened today actually. but i just feel very happy. haha. we've completed the last exam of the year!! holiday time!!!! =)

2006-11-08T23:33:00.000+08:00

now we are taking a break from the tuition at gracehaven children's home, since it's holidays now. i'll miss my cute Anita. lols. now jap lesson for elementary class is completed as well, i think around dec then we are starting advance level. now it's like so free, nothing much to do, other than pw and homework and training. there's still lessons next week. although it's boring, at least it's still better than having nothing to do and rot at home.

my real holidays will start in dec!! i'm going to work!!~ then hopefully can do something for gracehaven for christmas. and there's jap. mount ophir trip. i want to be santa claus!! anyone looking for someone to be santa claus, look for me!!! so fun~! =) lols.

2006-11-05T01:13:00.000+08:00

lonely. why is the feeling of it so terrible? why must i feel it all the time? just go away, cant you? =(

i'm starting to miss sec school days. where we used to go beach every now and then just to sun-tan and hear the sound of the waves and feel the water splashing on us. where we used to go to town to shop and walk aimlessly, the food and movie marathons. where we slept through whole of mr tan's lesson. where we changed our classroom to be the place where we eat, sleep, study. where all the memorable things took place, be it happy or sad.

i wonder how come things can be so different right now. the people, the place ain't the same anymore, but i'm like totally going into a different world as before. the way we talk, the things we do are totally different. i used to love this new world i'm in right now. but. again, it's beginning to change. or should i say, it has changed. change to something which i dont even recognise. why. why. i realised, i dont know you at all.

2006-10-30T23:16:00.000+08:00

maybe it's not real. everything i see now is not true at all. it's just not what i thought it was - my perfect life with wonderful people. it's not as beautiful, as perfect as what i have been picturing it to be all these while. why is it that it feels so superficial?

2006-10-24T21:45:00.000+08:00

PW!! went jinhao's house today for OP. two other groups were there as well. i was late for around half an hour. i'm so sorry! did op for a while then i had to leave for lunch at hotel miramar to celebrate my grandma's birthday. it was a buffet! spoiled my plans to lose weight. =( haha cos in order to make my money worth in a buffet, i just had to eat as much as i could. okay, i shall not slack for tmr's netball training. haha.

that's my cousins and sister. as you can see, they are all slim people. i'm considered super fat there. can you imagine how stress that is? haha. my dad should give me more of the slim genes. mine is depleting. lols.

anyway, i went back to jinhao's house after lunch to continue with pw. brainstorm some possible questions that may be asked and did some editing of the slides. and we are done! finally.

i'm so nervous!! i can't talk properly in front of everyone. once i'm nervous, i'll go blank. i can even forget what the whole project is all about. can't think, can't talk, can't do anything but to get stunned and stoned there. ahhh i don't want like this...!

had GAMES DAY yesterday. it was cool! little chicken and red bean bun from 0621 did great! it's not easy to play so many games in a row, including basketball, soccer, dodgeball, floorball, captain's ball. i think NY is getting more happening! heard from angie that there'll be halloween night coming up soon! wonder how it would be like. looking forward to it! =D

it was until yesterday then i realised chinese A'levels exam is next friday! omg. it's so so so soon! i thought there's still one more month to november. and OP is coming up real soon as well. really don't have much time left. work hard everyone! i'm sure we can do it. =)

and it was until today then i realised thursday will be the last day of school. there's so many things coming up until i don't even feel that it's holidays next week! and heard that thursday will be the day where we would know whether we got promoted. hope no one gets retain in my class. please. i'm not willing to even imagine how it would be like if anyone got retained. (praying hard)

2006-10-22T15:22:00.000+08:00

2006-10-13T23:51:00.000+08:00

NYJC open house!! at first i wasn't very excited about it, just don't have much feeling. supposed to reach school at 9am today for PW. i woke up at 8:59am. lols. then rushed to school and started doing PW. final WR to be submitted on monday! hope all our effort will be paid off. after WR, it will be OP time! this is scary. there's so many things to be done. and i cannot help feeling nervous right now just having the thought that the actual OP is drawing near. ahhh. so scary!

anyway, leaving PW aside, i had fun during open house! i thought it would be boring, but it ended up so happening! actually, not really very happening, but i enjoyed myself =)

did some decorations at the netball station there. set up the poles for the 1-min netball challenge. we then went around to look for people to try out the 1-min challenge. it's not easy to convince people and persuade them. i don't like this kind of job. but anyway, after some time, quite a lot of people came to join the challenge by themselves. minjun, simon they all also came. minjun brought her gor gor also. then they played. lols. they very funny. very pek chek with themselves cos they kept missing and couldn't get the ball in. i also made use of the time to practise shooting skills. i always cannot shoot in also de. but after a while, i somehow got the hang of it. got a sense of satisfaction =)

the secondary schools students who came to try out were quite fun-loving. most of them were very friendly and nice. hope can see these people come to NY next year =P

towards the end of open house, there's a friendly rugby match between NY and SRJC. all of us went to watch. but i only managed to watch a bit cos had to pack up netball stuff.

after that, i met up with my class, then we went to play basketball! i think it's the first time playing bball with most of my class guys. minjun and i were the only girls there. lols. the guys played until very funny. i was laughing all the way. hek's shoes were spoiled, so he took off his shoes and socks and roll up his pants and played. looked so funny. then yanhao thought the ball was coming, so he jumped up and clapped his hands together, then realised the ball was passed backwards. lols. looked so dumb. then joel kept teasing minjun, so comical. haha.

we played until around 7plus then left for dinner. went chomp chomp! it was crowded as usual. finally got our seats and had our dinner.

today was the first time i got so many injuries at one go. lols. first, was my thumb. got injured while playing match before the open house. then was my head. i was picking up a ball on the floor, then didn't notice the other ball was flying towards me. feel that i'm getting even more stupid now. then next is my two other fingers, got hit by hek's ball. then playing bball that time also hurt the other hand. lols. but all not very serious de la, now all okay le, except for my thumb. it still hurts. hope it'll be okay soon. very inconvenient to do things when hand got injured.

2006-10-12T01:00:00.000+08:00

have been thinking a lot these days.
okay, i've always been thinking a lot.
it's time to reflect, sum up everything and move on.
ms ng is right, we should always reflect and think every now and then as we move on to the different stages in our life.
this is when we would learn and grow up.

i must say that i'm a very lucky person.
i have great people who dote, care and always be there for me.
my family, him, char, JSH, 0621....etc.

i always tried my best to treasure them all.
but human is like this, when you have something, you won't take much notice about it, until you are going to lose it or already lost it, you will start to treasure it or regret.
life is filled with regrets.

thank godness that they are still by my side now.
so, i must take this opportunity to tell the whole world that how grateful i am to these wonderful people who spice up my life.
=)

however, i know that they will all leave me someday.
only the memories will stay.

it's getting to the end of J1.
hopefully, all of us will get promoted and work towards another goal together =)

hmm, it has been a fruitful year for me.

first three months in SA, i finally got to get the feel of what it is like being a saint.
i've never be part of such united school before.
everyone as saints cheering together as one, singing the school song proudly, so on about each and everything that happen in school.
it's really like one big family unbroken.
how i miss the orientation days.
OG16 =)

then i got to NY.
my class, 0621.
it is the best thing happen to me this year.
meeting this group of wonderful people.
i'm really in love with them.
in just a few months, the things we did together are much more than what 4E4 did as a class for two years.

we went to row boat together at dragonboat fun race.
we fixed puzzle together and complete it within 2hours!
we attend ms ng's wedding together.
we went Escape theme park as a class. (imagining almost whole class sitting the rides together =P)
every single one of us wore ethnic costume to school on racial harmony day.
we even went to cemetery together.
we go children's home tuition together.
we go for jap/cookery lesson.
always go eat as one whole class.
etc etc etc etc etc.

the upcoming one and most exciting one is WE ARE GOING TO MOUNT OPHIR!!
lols.
haven't confirm yet, but hopefully we can go!
and most importantly, my mom would allow me to.
and also CLASS CHALET!!
sure very fun one.
cos it's my beloved class =P

learn to treasure is a blessing.
we must all treasure our life.
especially people around us.
just wanna add one last thing, THANK YOU to everyone!

2006-10-12T00:58:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARMAIN!!

=) =) =)

2006-10-07T12:55:00.000+08:00

just love to immerse myself in the vcd world. sometimes hoping the story would happen on me. such exciting life. when there's danger, got people come and save me. lols. but such cool life, wont happen in real world de. if it does, it will never happen on me anyway. so.... back to my show!! =)

okay i'm bored.

2006-10-07T08:08:00.000+08:00

finally IT'S OVER!! haha. actually it's over for three days already. i'm just being lazy to blog. i'm having lots of bad feeling about it, but forget it. i know i've tried my best to study already. if i really get retained, that's too bad then.

thursday, the day after our last paper.
michelle, yuanting, minjun, tricia, angie, me, hekming, joel, junAn, jeremy went to pulau ubin. so little ppl went, so sad. not really a class outing anymore le. sigh. anyway, we reached there around 1plus i think. then we rented bicycles. lucky me, got michelle to fetch again. she's so nice. haha. at first hek say dun have double bike one leh. i got very worried when they say i have to learn on the spot. very stress one lor. everyone was waiting for me to learn. but luckily i escaped that =P

there was this sharp turn whereby me and michelle almost bang into the tree. the tree was like super super near us, just in front of us! my eyes went closed and i screamed. the next moment when i opened my eyes, we were cycling towards another road. michelle saved my life. lols. she's so pro. we then cycled a bit further, kept turning back to see if the rest had caught up. figuring out that they might not know which direction to go, we U-turned back. saw minjun was hurt. she fell into the bushes. poor darling. glad that she's okay.

then we cycled to Mamam Beach. so cool. it's like go on expedition. looking at the map and cycle around exploring, so fun! then when finally reached there, we sat down and eat fruits. haha luckily we bought fruits there. can quench our thirst. we played "zhong ji mi ma", the person who got the number can eat one grape. wahhhh it's a torture leh. cos at first i couldn't get any number, yet so tempted to eat the grapes. then finally everyone got at least a chance to eat. then we all cannot take it le, so just dun play le and attack all the grapes! lols.
after that, we cycled back a bit to buy drinks. we came to this hut, and stopped for quite some time to look at the rabbits. i like the small white one. so cute!
then this was when joel say his arm hurts. he got cut by something i think, the pain kept persisting, so we think maybe it's poison, so we cycled back to the reception area to look for some first aid help.

glad to hear that he felt better after that =) then we continued our way up to Chek Jawa. we heard that there's construction going on, so we can't go in. but we went in anyway. lols. to explore. there were lots of up and down slopes, so there was this point where we have to take turns to go. cos it was very steep and fast. wahhhh michelle is really a good cyclist. she's super pro. when we went down, the path was so rocky that our whole body kept bouncing on the bike. it was so fast, then i couldn't open my eyes. it was too scary. i was then thinking, i'm so glad that i'm not cycling by myself, i sure cannot make it. too scary already. i was so amazed that she can still remain cool and calm, opening her eyes big big to see the road.

finally, we reached this point where we waited for the rest to catch up. angie then came. after that, it was supposed to be yuanting. we heard a scream, thought yuanting screamed just because she was so excited or something. but after some wait, she didn't appear. michelle then figured out something went wrong, so went to take a look with angie, leaving me there with jeremy and the bicycles =(

i just sat there and got bitten by the mosquitoes. many a times, wanted to go see what happened, but hek and angie said it on the phone, call us to just wait there. i thought nothing serious happened since they called us to do so, so we just continued to wait, hoping they would catch up soon.

finally michelle and angie came up, and told us to go down. if only i knew earlier, i would go down with them. stay up there was so boring and i felt so useless, cos they had some problem there and i wasn't there to do anything. when we met up with them, i saw hek applying something to yuanting's face. i looked at yuanting. she was badly injured. her face, shoulder, arm, legs... ahhh so xintong! especially the cut on her face was so near her eyes. must be very painful. poor girl.
luckily joel brought lots of first aid stuff, so we can help her clean and wrap up her wounds. she was still smiling, and assure, and reassuring that she's fine. she's such a strong girl. we then walked back, pushing the bikes.

after some walk, michelle decided to fetch yuanting back by the double bike first since she like walked until very xinku liddat. the rest of them walked with me as i couldn't cycle. i felt so bad. then there's this point when there were two big dogs kept following us. tricia was terrified, kept hiding and hiding. we then formed this formation where she was protected all around. lols.
after a while, the dogs just left. and michelle came and asked us to cycle back cos it was quite a long way back. she called angie to fetch me on the double bike and she herself cycled and holding another bike. that was so cool.

we had coconut drinks after returning our bikes. i dun really like coconuts, but it was kinda refreshing after this long day, so i finished my own coconut for the first time, without eating the flesh of cos. we then went back by the bumpboat.
we spilted into two groups, one sending yuanting to the nearby clinic for check up, the rest to meet sarah and sokhua at marina bay cos two girls alone there, not very safe. we were supposed to meet them at 7pm to eat steamboat, ended up reaching at 9plus. we are so sorry about it!
we then decided not to eat steamboat, since it's so late already, and that no one had the mood to enjoy the food. so we went to esplanade instead, reaching home at 11plus and got scolded a bit.

it was such a long day. i'm glad we all had fun, aside from the mishaps.
hope that minjun, hek, joel and yuanting are fine.
thank you all for making this day possible.
thanks for the care and concern along the way.
hope u all enjoyed the day as much as i do =)

take care, people!

2006-09-30T18:13:00.000+08:00

why must she do this to me at this point of time? why is it that one statement of hers can make me forget the hard work i've put in for the past few weeks, the encouragement from my friends and teachers, and thought of really to give up? what's the point of working so hard then? now, it is her who is the one who ask me to give up, and not to study anymore! this is so hurting and demoralising.

guess who is she?

she is my mom.

2006-09-26T22:17:00.000+08:00

after a good night sleep, i feel much better le.
went to study with yuanting they all today.
haha quite efficient leh.
one day study more than half of physics topics le.
one of the main achievement today is yuanting is satisfy with my haircut service!
haha.
cut fringe only la.
she's the first willing person who wan me cut hair for her leh.
even i offer to cut for yk, he also dun allow me.
only let me cut 1mm liddat.
so bad.
anyway, had lots of fun cutting.
cos the hair keep flying around and whenever i see yuanting i wan to laugh le.
then we like spend dunno how long laughing.
haha.
so fun!

okay la back to work.
left very little time already.
hope i dun get retained!!

studying with hj at bcc tmr.
mug mug mug!!

2006-09-25T22:14:00.000+08:00

i'm so so so dead!!
urghh.
had gp and chinese paper today.
ahhh.
so screwed up!!
i got study lehh.
spend one whole day studying gp.
although i know gp cannot study much de la.
i did try to make some effort!!
somemore topic on environment came out.
but in a different form.
i was like spend first 20min planning.
making sure i will answer the question correctly.
but then as i write, it went out of point.
i also dunno why like that.
then i panic cos no time le.
so no choice, but have to continue.
tried to bring my points back.
aiya dunno la.
just cannot make it already.

then i very scared.
especially when stepped out of exam room, everyone was like saying this was their first time finishing the paper, and writing a lot a lot a lot.
everyone seemed so confident.
this made me feel even worse.
i can somehow see ms shahida keep harping on how lousy my gp is.
i wont be surprise to see my paper with the mark starting with 1, or maybe even get single digit.
ahhh i dun wan liddat.
why i always cannot interpret the question well enough?
always only after i write halfway then realise i wrote it wrongly??
can't control myself, tears just kept falling.
i must be looking real stupid then.

during paper two of gp, i cant concentrate again.
i can somehow see myself being retained.
kept scolding myself not to think about it anyhow and concentrate on the paper.
that was the only chance to make up for paper one.
but it's not easy to do so.
i've tried my best to control my emotions le.
that's all i could do.

after that we went J8 long john eat.
on our way there, i decided to blast jay chou's song in my ears and cut myself off from everything.
it's really quite effective leh.
i feel much better after that.
then the next way to destress is to EAT!

we then went back school for chinese paper.
on our way back, i then realised i forget to study for chinese.
din even open my book.
so i just arga read one, two sentence of each passage, hopefully can recall wad the stories are about.
then when writing compo, i write until very shuang cos like got a lot to write liddat.
then after spending half an hour writing one full page, i realise i din answer the question at all!
i was like thinking, if i were to delete the whole page and rewrite like maybe no time le, cos still need to think of new story line.
suddenly another idea came to me then i decided to twist the story a bit to suit the question.
dunno can anot.
then after the paper then i realise i din put the keyword of the title down in my essay.
aiya just so screwed for the day.

urghh.
hate myself.

2006-09-14T22:55:00.000+08:00

promos!!
in 11 days time!
i haben started much yet.
only did some chem and maths.
so much to do, so little time.
i'm still quite slack now.
trying hard to mug more, but always end up falling asleep de.
help help help!
please help me get back study mode!
no time le!!

putting promos aside.
there's something to be happy about.
i got a new phone!!
k610i.
finally!
haha.
since i lost my darling E600C in march this year, i've been using that lousy replacement phone which can be only use for call and sms.
not even have camera leh.
somemore my camera spoil on that same day i lost my phone.
wahh finally leh.
=)=)=)

school is great for me this week.
haha i also dunno why.
just feel very happy.
maybe cos i did all my tutorials during the holidays, so dun have to rush.
but i'm very worried leh.
cos promos' in two weeks time, i'm still like so relaxed like that.
urgh.
must hurry study le!
okay,i've been repeating that for many times le.
i shall do it now.

2006-09-09T23:05:00.000+08:00

went to help out for the inline skating event held in expo today. woke up with a shock when tricia called me. cos it's already 7am! and we are supposed to meet at 7 at bishan cos we have to reach expo by 8am. somemore i'm the one who say dun be late, and i ownself late. urgh. feel so bad. then i run all the way to J8, very tiring leh.
anyway, then finally reach expo le then the IC told us lynette told them we'll be reaching at 9.30am. ahhh feel so cheated! then we just slack around lor. went to roller blade. haha i've been learning to blade since dunno when la. always cannot. so lousy one. luckily got minjun to hold on to me. if not i sure fall down dunno how many times le.
then after that, we were supposed to go back to our positions to guard one. to prevent ppl from crossing the skating lane la. but the event like no one there de. then we all thought haven't start yet since there's practically no one else around. so a lot people went to blade and play badminton. then there's this man who was crossing the lane and the skater almost going to bang into him, just because we din do our job to guard the place. then i hurry call some people go back to their places lor. like take turns to guard, since dun need so many people ma. it's supposed to have a lot of people there one la, as the IC of the event said, but dunno why only got a few people there and we like go there din do much like that. but at least some of us got do something la. then someone said something that i find it very irritating. okay, nvm. it's over.

after that, we went to bk and eat! then minjun, tricia, sharon, sokhua and i went to food fest!! we had ice monster! so nice! then we had sharks' fins. yum yum! but after that we went off le.

got control of myself not to eat laksa and buy chocolates. must jianfei! and save money of cos. eating is a waste of money. and it'll make people grow fat! so cannot eat so much le. somemore always i eat is just for the sake of eating and not to fill my stomach. always very full also continue to eat de. must stop le. people, please control me and help me with my jianfei plan. thank you! lols.

dun wanna feel out.

2006-09-07T20:25:00.000+08:00

went for 6E gathering yesterday.
went to marina bay to meet the rest.
lols.
then we decided not to go eat steamboat le.
haha.
then went all the way back to serangoon to junwei's house which is opposite NY.
the guys went up first then the girls went chomp chomp take away food.
haha then we eat eat eat.
then play some stupid games.
and do stupid things.
haha not bad la, quite fun.

can't stand loneliness.
can't stand myself.
why am i so sensitive until become too paranoid?
can't i just stop thinking so much?
think so much about unnecessary stuff.
why can't i just use this energy to do other useful things like think about maths or physics problems?
i hate myself!!

2006-09-01T23:54:00.000+08:00

got a sudden urge to blog.
just wanna say,
I LOVE 0621!! =D

sighh. cant imagine how it will be like at the end of next year when we all have to leave and go separate ways. i hate the feeling of separation. but it is this kind of separation that makes us treasure the time we spend with the people around us more.

it's just like only until sec4 then i start to treasure my time in ZH, in 4e4, in girl guides. i used to take everything for granted. it's until then, we start to take a lot of class photos and treasure our time as a class.

went back to zhonghua on teachers' day celebration. din feel much actually cos it's not as if i very very very long never go back le. only 3 to 4 teachers who thought us left. the rest all leave the school le. also, it's like see the teachers also like dunno what to say liddat. very awkward. things have changed a lot since we left. it's just aint the same anymore. it's such a pity that i dun have the being a graduate feeling. it just feels so weird.

anyway, after that, me, huimei, huijuan, shioks, yongcai and yuxuan went to marina kbox. lols. never go kbox with any e4 guys before, other than yk la. we had a bad encounter with the service by this guy. he's so irritating. then when we got out of the room, we went to write the feedback form to complain that guy. first time liddat complain a person. haha. then huijuan wrote one whole page to complain his service. he's really very rude lor.

we then went to funan to wait for ms lam and the rest. huijuan went to bought wax to style her hair. haha i think it's not bad lehh. then finally they all came le then we went pasta to eat. had a nice chat with ms lam. she's just like one of us lor, very nice to talk to. like a normal girls' talk. talk about weight, hair, face and stuff like that. lols so fun!

after that, the guys go separate ways, as usual. then we walked to clarke quay and along the river. the life is different there at night. so cool. i shall go and have dinner there someday =P then ms lam went to meet her husband then we went to the river there to talk talk. had a great chat with shioks =D

went home with huimei after that. she's so nice, pei wo wait for bus =)

27 august, sunday. we went out to celebrate shioks birthday. went to pasta to eat. after that went to cafe cartel to have cake. cos after 9pm got half price for all cheese cakes! so we ordered 5 different cheesecakes. it's heavenly! i love the chocolate one =P it's just a very simple celebration, but i'm sure it's nice enough to have us spending time together, right? =) shioks, i'm very sorry that we din have time prepare your present. but we'll get u one de, promise! we wont give just for the sake of giving de, it'll be meaningful =)
happy belated birthday!

2006-08-30T14:31:00.000+08:00

finally there's a break.
it has been such a tiring and busy term.
i din even realised july is over and august is coming to an end soon.
everything just passed so fast.
and promos are coming in 4weeks time!
ahhh.
so scary.
on my way of getting into the mood of studying le.
hopefully can really concentrate and pass my promos.
have been failing all subjects in the latest common tests.
teachers keep asking what happen to me.
mustn't let everyone be disappointed again.
JIA YOU EVERYONE!! =)

2006-08-27T01:06:00.000+08:00

went discovery centre for learning journey on thursday. got interesting stuff. but too bad too little time left for hands on activities. expected the trip to be more fun and exciting de, but everyone's so sian-ed so not as fun as i expected it to be. still not bad la =)

2006-08-25T23:25:00.000+08:00

was brousing through some photos.
decided to post some up to cheer myself up =P
miss those wonderful times we had.

sher, rmb your birthday surprise last year? lols. really had lots of fun at kbox =D

aiya stupid blogger got some problems, upload photos so slow.
nvm, next time then put some more.

it has been such a fast week.
the earliest i reach home this week i think is aroun 9.15pm leh.
feel so guilty of not spending time with my family.
sighhh.
tired.

just came back from jap lesson just now.
it's one of the rare chances i can talk to char.
not exactly rare la.
but we always like got not much time to talk to each other these days le.
only sometimes when we are able to wake up early then go swim or jog together then got chance.

she's the one and only person who totally understand me.
she can tell straight away whenever i'm feeling down, even if we din see each other.
somehow, she can just sense it.
it's really amazing to have such a friend who will always offer her ears at the right time and place.
after knowing each other for so many years, this year should be the 14th year le ba, we become very similar.
as in the way we feel and think about things.
we can understand why each other does it that way without explanations.
she's the only person whom i can share every single little secret with.
i'm so so so glad to have such a friend.
thank you =)

please be more sensitive to others' feelings.
dun always think you are right.
try to listen to others' views and opinions.
try to be in each others' shoes and understand them.
please learn to be not so hurting in your words.

2006-08-24T00:33:00.000+08:00

once again, thanks to all who have been with me these days.
i'm fine already =)
thank you for giving me your shoulders to cry on.
thank you char for being so so so understanding and be with me always.
thank you JSH for giving me lots of moral support.
thank you 0621 for keeping me entertained and cheer me up.
thank you netballers for giving me encouragement and support.
thank you all who tag to show your care n concern.
thanks to all of you! =)

now, it's the time for me to move on.
no point crying over spilled milk.
just have to work harder for promos!
i need lots of motivation now.
hope can hurry get out of the feel-so-sick-about-everything's mode.
and STUDY!!
lets all work hard together k?
jiayou everyone!!!! =D

feel like becoming a farmer.

2006-08-20T19:59:00.000+08:00

after maths tutorial on friday, which suppose to end at 2.45pm, but cos ms lim wan go through the important part of vectors, so delay a bit. then i rush out of class immediately. must be very weird den, got the whole class still at their seats, no intention of leaving then i ownself liddat run out.
anyway, then i ran all the way to bus stop lor. stupid leh. then one 53 jus liddat run off. so angry. but luckily the next one came not so long later.
i just slept all the way lor. had only 9 hours of sleep in three days leh. super tired. then i was very worried that i cannot get there on time cos at around 3.50pm that time i'm still at some tampines dunno what road. he's going in at 4pm. then i hurry msg shioks. she then told me it's 4.30pm, so okay lor, but still have to rush.
then i alight at terminal one and ran all the way to take the skytrain. din know can alight at terminal two de leh. anyway, then i ran there then the train just left!! so sway leh. wait wait wait. then alight le then i starting running again. dunno where to run to also cos i'm not very familiar with terminal two. then suddenly hear someone call me, then realised the whole group of them were at burger king there. a bit duilian la.
wahh i that day really run alot lor. 2.4km run plus all the chasing of bus and train. anyway, then after a while, sumahdi had to leave le. we took a group photo then hug hug then he left le. the scene is a happy one. but when he went in and kept on turning around that time, i feel very sad. maybe forever cannot see him le.

he's my sec one and two classmate. same english class as me in sec three and four too. really miss the sec two life with all the sentosa, east coast outings, and movie marathons and basketball games!! especially the play in the thunder and lightning one. so fun!! lols. that was those days. all the best to him. i'll miss him de =D

after sending him off, jenny, shioks, huimei and me went to sakae to have buffet!! it's a good way to relive stress lor. by eating. haha. but very unhealthy to the body. but who cares la. next time then jian fei. finally we got a chance to eat sakae le lehh. jenny had been hurping on it for years. since sec one i think. it's our first time eating sakae together. haha. and it's my first time at sakae too. jenny, i've saved this first time for u leh. must be touched hor. haha.
four of us ate around 50 over plates of sushi plus some side dishes and ice cream and noodles. that's really a lot! haha oh ya jenny did a lot very stupid stuff. she kept pressing the computer screen then start wondering why there is no response de. then shioks point to the hidden mouse and told her that it's not a touch screen computer. haha very duilian lehh.

really had lots of fun that day. at least for that few hours. dun have to face or think about anything. just relax and spend time with my beloved friends. thanks for cheering me up =) must thank ALL who give me encouragement and support. really appreciate all the little things you all have done or said to me. those really meant a lot a lot. i'll be okay de =) soon.. i hope..

2006-08-16T22:37:00.000+08:00

i feel so useless.
everything just went so wrong.
i realised i'm always making people around disappointed in me.
my parents, teachers, friends ...
i cant do anything well enough.
my grades are dropping like never before.
keep playing badly for netball.
can never manage my time properly.
can never control my feelings and mood well.
just everything is a big big failure.

looking down from my room window, wonder how it would be like to just jump down like this.
but i've fear of heights.
wondering how it would feel if a car run over me, but i'm scared of pain.
since young, thoughts of committing suicide come to me whenever i encounter a problem.
but i cannot imagine how my parents would react.
they spent so much time and money raising me up, i cannot just die like this.
so no matter wad, i cannot hurt them anymore.

anyway, i wont do silly things, dun worry.
those are only some stupid thoughts when i'm feeling depressed.
thank you all who cared a lot about me.
i'll be okay after some time.
dun worry when i cry.
it's just my way of venting my anger, disappointment, sadness, whatever.
after crying, i'll be fine de.
thanks to all who lend me your shoulders to cry on.

give me some time to recover.
and get back on my feet.

2006-08-10T02:21:00.000+08:00

Aries Man
He always let other people walk in front of him, but he will get there first. He is a very careful guy and small obstacles won't make him fall easily even he thinks life is a very serious matter. He is as romantic as any other Zodiac. He could look gentle, but inside he is as strong as steel. Once he determine to do something, he is serious about doing it well. He will keep any pressure or insult deep down inside without showing emotion. You will never see his emotion of burden or disappointment and always wonder what he thinks or feels. He will well kept his feeling. You will never see a guy in this Zodiac involving in other people business. He always concern with his own business. Sometimes he can be talkative, but he will never give anyone advice if he has not been asked. If you ask for advice, he will certainly give you one. He respects elderly and senior, so you will see he is the type who visit his parents steadily or often. He is a slightly shy but also a stubborn person. He will find many ways to make you happy when you are with him, till you realize he is the important person for you. Once he is in the "Power Position", he will use his power gently. He is a good leader and "Gentleness" is one of his effective method for exploiting his power. It is although he is borne to be a leader. He never hide his ambition, and he is a workaholic. he will not take any position that he has no control. He will work very hard to reach his goal and satisfaction. Compliment from his boss or superior are never enough for him, he want his deserved reward. His deep insecurity make him reach and collecting valuable things, and this you may think he is stingy. Actually he could easily spending money to buy things, traveling or pay for things that makes him happy and he think necessary for his need. He care what other people think of him and want to get good comments or compliments. Outside he looks like stone and steel, but inside he is a fragile person. He will hide and cover up weak emotion and his sadness in order to maintain and keep up his "Image". One method of cover up you could easily notice is suddenly if he is quiet, cold, or act very strong or very secure. Often, he feels insecure, even he is serious about his life and his own surrounding. This is the man who never hurry to get marry, so hardly sit back and regret about his marriage later. If he gets marry, he need to be very certain and very sure. It will take a long time for such decision, so if you tell him that you are "breaking up" , you better forget him for good because he will never coming back. He always keep his promise. If he said he will meet you in your place in 2 hours then he will be there, unless there is a serious accident or unavoidable things happen. He hate people who is late for date or any appointment. He like to think woman should be a follower and take care of family and working is a man duty. He does not like to compete with his girl friend or his wife at work because competition already exist with himself and other people. He will be very proud if he can afford and care for his family. Do not try to over power him or insult him, he can not stand it. He likes to be in control of every things, every situations. He like a "Classy Woman" ,if she also comes from a good family then it is a Plus. It will make him feel proud and very ego about her status. Flashy type of woman , forget it. He like a perfect or a nearly perfect housewife. He tend to be possessive. He will not tell you if he is mad at you, but will act very moody to show you instead. He like to hear sweet word and compliment so you can get his interest that way. If he approaches you to ask you out, do not act too stubborn or fooling around too much. He will get tired and just disappear. He has to feel confident when he is around you, so knowing this fact you should know what to do, right! If you want him, you have to make him feel like he is the most important person for you. He likes a kind hearted woman , polite and can get along with his family. When he feels sad, do not leave him alone, but be very supportive. Kind words and your smile will win him over, so this strong man will be like a chicken in your palm.

Aries Women
She thinks the world is watching her through the eye glasses of rose petal frame. She thinks people think and talk about her only about good things and often disappoint to know the fact that they are not true and not even real, so she will feel hurt. She think her path has to be a beautiful one. She think only good things so she prepares and always make arrangement for herself to be in the right path always, quite systematic indeed. If there is no guy in her life, she will be busy with herself. This seemingly ordinary woman will push herself to meet her goal. Her face mostly will be slim and long, high cheek bone, Eye brow slightly curve up, slight tall more than short, thin lips and she will have quite a confusing or mixture of character. Sometimes, she will be very careful about guy she will mingle with. She thinks as if she has a main CPU in her head and she could memorize everything from her childhood. When she faces with problems, she will handle them and solving them very well, and at the same time showing other people that she has that capability. She can put her mind in solving problems in crisis better than many other Zodiac. Once she determine to do thing, nothing will stop her. Woman in this Zodiac could be totally different from one woman to another woman. You could see her in the party dancing like flash dance or dirty dancing, as well you could also see her as an old fashion lady or a geek. She could be someone flashy and wanted by many men, or she could be a cold and non-social person. She will have her own way to win you over. Once she choose you, she will need to be proud of you. "Love" is not as important to her as "Marriage". Her real goal in life is "Safety" and her position in other people sight need to be "Secure". She plans her life, and socially life easily and very carefully. She is also very artistic and realistic, so if you are a nobody or nothing, no chance because she loves ambition and a good life. She need lots of love,but do not want and do not belief in an occasional or unconventional love. She is a proud in nature type, so if you see a woman in this Zodiac come from a poor family, she will act like a woman from a noble family by birth anyway (certainly there are always exception). She always look cool even when she is not. She like to make people see her as "secure and confident" even she is a mixed emotion and mixed character type. If she is mad, you can tell right away and she can stay moody for quite a long time. You never have all her times, for she likes to work hard and also spent some spare times working for charity. You will see woman in this zodiac a "Volunteer" for camp, and if she is in a high society, she will most likely be a president or a V.P. of a "Club". She is a romantic and artistic, but being poor and unstable is certainly not in her dreams. Her beautiful imaginations need to be realistic, for failure is not in her plan. A Goat always climb high, so either she start from a low point or a high point, she will make sure at the end she will have the best spot. She will not show her ambition, but she will show that she satisfy with herself now. Once you look back she already moved up again , quietly but sure. If she is your love one, be supportive and understand her. She is stubborn, but she will listen. She will act like a gentle fragile person,but in fact she can stick you down like a super glue without you knowing it.

TAURUS MAN
A quiet simple man who can do something unexpected to shock you. Taurus man mostly medium tall, strong with good health, good strong body. When he talks, he likes to turn his head to one side on one direction. His body will be quite straight, facial structure tend to be square shape more than other shape. His eyes sparkle with liveliness. Even when he is in love, he is still a free wild bird. He is a sand in your palm, the more you want to hold it, it will slip out. If you stand and hold it still, it will stay that way. Don't set the rules and draw a line for him, he will not stay. When you are with him, he will think only of you. But an hour later he could change his mind. He is very patient with other people, but very impatient with himself. His world always turning and it will not stop just because he loves you. If he up sets, he will show it right away. If something has gone wrong, he will blame his own carelessness instead of blaming other people. He sincere to his friends even to some friends he does not like. He likes to do odd things and surprise other people. He could be fully dress in a nice suit and jump in the pool. He could slap your back so hard just to make you turn around to see he has flowers in his hand. He never want to get too close with anyone for he thinks living in reality is living by yourself. He does not care what people think when he behave weird. He could be walking bare feet and laughing at people who laugh at him and think they are so narrow minded. He does not likes to follow conformity, but always want to search for new ventures, new mystery. He will interest in a life of a millionaire as much as a life of an old man selling newspaper on a sidewalk vendor. He like to search and analyze people and things. He will analyze his friends or his girl friend, and once the mystery is gone, he will search for new puzzle to solve. He can not easily understand thing, so he will gradually learning about you till he fills up all his questions. He knows so many people ,but he has a few friends. He looks for quality friends than quantity friends. He will be close with some friends shortly and move on. He always feel lonely even surround by many people. He could create his own little world, and sometimes no one would understand him. He looks only for future and he thinks he lives for the future. He may wonder how many people think like he does, but he does not want to be like the others. A man with a conflict personality. He is a cool, understanding, able to work well, and very artistic. Taurus man could be an artist. He could shock you as much as he is able to clam you down when you up set. He is a free spirit who likes venture, but when he wants to be alone, do not touch him but to let him be. He won't disappear from the crowds too long, he will be back. He will give you straight forward opinion or comments, but will never advice what he thinks you should do. He does not like people to tell him what he should do too. He thinks each individual dreams and thoughts should be very private. He will use his brain not his body strength, so he will let other guys compete. He has a certain satisfactory in life and hate to force himself in competition. He may seems careless, but actually he is a thinker and a stubborn one. He sees anythings in details and not easily trusted people till he thinks he knows them well. You can just smile and he will think why and what are you smiling about, and if you are pretending. Once he trust you and accept you as a friend, no one can says other wise to change that for he will not listen to gossip. He will be honest and sincere to his friends. He hates lies, so he will not tell you lies. If he finds it is necessary to lie, he will find other ways not to tell you or avoid telling you anything. If he really has to lie, you will never be able to tell that he is lying. He can really keep secrets, so you will hardly know that he is a lonely soul. If you want this kind of guy, you have to be an interesting person. He has to be curious about you. Hell for him is "No Freedom", so if he marry you then you should know it is the biggest decision in his life. Always be interesting, then you could have him beside you.

TAURUS WOMAN
A slim moderately tall woman. Taurus woman is funny and a jolly person. Square facial bone structure, high cheek bone. Her round big eyes sparkle with wit and curiosity. You will not see many round faces Taurus women, and mainly she will have a strong jaw line. She is a constantly change person. If she upsets, she will not show it and will keep it to herself for a long time, and will remember them so well. If she gets really mad at you, you will suddenly become a totally and completely stranger to her. She is a patient person, but always need new excitement. She hates long talk meeting, long and endless conversation. She can be in love with you today, and one day she could act as if she has never loved you before. She has patient with what she wants to do and will never give up until she gets there. She will be very persistent in what she is doing till she has reasons for stopping her project, then she will quit. Money for Taurus woman is not the most important factor in life. She thinks of money as an instrument for assuring of a good living. She has more satisfaction in achieving her goals more than satisfaction in fine cloths and luxuries. If you like a woman who always thinks of love and romance ,then you are dating the wrong girl. You can not tell her to stay at home, she likes to work and preferred not work at home. She loves animals and likes to surround by animals. Love is in her head, but Freedom is in her soul. She has her own idea about love and afraid to show her true feeling for fear of rejection. She is not the type to talk about love, but she sure has a strange way to show it. She is not good in showing when she is in love, but if she loves you she will be honest to you than any other women. She will be honest to her love one, but at the same time seems distant. You will have a good relationship with her, if you allow her freedom. Do not force her to be with you in a poker game which she hates, but let she goes out swinging with her friends if she wants to. She will be different than other girls, and she thinks different is one of her unique quality. She is a public figure but belongs to no one.She will not stay with you, if she thinks you are not sincere. She likes you to have personality, but better not to compete with her. Loves her, but not too much for she afraid it will limiting her freedom. She always stand out of the crowd for something she dares to do. You could see her dress like a poor farmer dinning in the fancy restaurant, or dress like a nun in an a cocktail dress party. If you are a politician who are looking for a wife, she will make a good one because she is cleverly smart and she could get along socially with any type of crowds. She is not a jealous type because she has to know you thoroughly before accepting you in her life. She has more curiosity in life than wondering if right now you are flirting with someone else. If you keep a distant from her, or go away for a few days, she will miss you more. Even when she is dating you, she also able to fond of someone else, if you do not have something she is looking for. She will never disappoint you or hide behind your back to make you loose face, but she is the type who just going to tell you to your face that " We're better off breaking up". She always remember her first love. Taurus woman holds the best record for divorce for she does not care about how people think of her, but every things should be done for "Happiness". She has lots of friends and sure of herself, so you will hardly see she delays any of her thoughts before her action. If she think of something, she will go ahead and does it. She has many men wanting her for her constant changes is the challenge. She can be cute and funny, but suddenly cool and tough. She has her own style of dressing up, so you could see her dress like an old mate today, and tomorrow she may dress like she comes from Mars. She will have that interesting hair, dress and a look unique from anyone else. She likes to learn about your dreams and your thought. She has fun teasing you and making jokes. If she did something wrong, she won't hide it from you, but do not ask when she is not in the mood to talk about it. She hates to owe people money and take promise seriously. If you promise to pay her back, you'd better paid up. If you want to make it with Taurus woman, then do not be jealous or possessive, do not be narrow minded, do not criticize about nonsense or small and insignificant matters. Try to likes her friends and let she has her privacy, then she can be very sweet to you.

PISCES MAN
He is very emotional and always allow himself to be very emotional. He can have a good night sleep and be in a good mood, and less than few hours at work he can be very moody. He does not understand things or try to understand things easily. If you notice him carefully, you will notice what kind of moods he is in. He is a thinker and able to do well at work and always succeed. His normal gestures mean he always look at other people faults, but he will not talk about it. He has the ability to know your thought and able to tell you what you are thinking about. He can mostly memorize all his anger, his loves. They are his important secrets and he will keep them to himself and will never let you know. He is not a very ambition man and careless about his position in society. Wealth does not drawn his attention, because he is not greedy man and as well he thinks money is not something that will last. He could be very careless about his future. He does not like to fight against all odds, but instead following the stream and make life easier. Sometimes because he likes to take an easy path, which cause him very unsteady future. He is kind and slightly lazy, but it is his cute character. He hates rules and regulations. He will never look down on people. He is a polite guy and can be very aggressive when he is mad. He loves to think that he lives in a beautiful world and surround by nice people, so if he finds his world is cruel and not what he expects, he will live in his world instead. His other charm is that he is a funny guy, and it is his real weapon. He can tease you and yet make it looks like one of his joke. Even when he is sad, he still has that funny face, so you could hardly tell if he is mad or depress. He likes to hide his feeling and help other people especially those who need friend or lonely. He will be everything that you want and everything you do not want. He has a chance to make it as much as a chance to fail. He can determine to make it work and can do it well, except he tends to lost his energy with other important things, that's how he miss many of his good opportunity. He can be happy and content by himself. What he think is important is not "Love" ,but firm status and stability. He has plenty of love for you. He is a good speaker, as much as he is a good listener. When he is with you, he wants to be happy. He understand his partner's emotional. He likes to take a long rest and sometimes being alone. If he needs to be alone, try not to disturb him. He is a sensitive, quiet , shy and easily hurt. He wants to feel worthy. He can be mad and noisy, but once he calm down, he will be that happy person again. He is not a jealous or possessive guy, and if he feels jealous he will hide it. He has many friends of both sex, and he care about his friends. He likes to have lots of friends, so you can not get jealous or else you will loose him. He likes beautiful things, so if a pretty woman walk by he will look ,so do not get mad at him knowing this fact. When he is lonely or feeling sad, be close to comfort him. He does not like to take advice,so if you want him to listen or to follow your advice, you have to act as a good sample for him first. He likes a cheery and a smart woman. If you treat him like he is your special person, then he will be that special person for you. He will trust you if he is in love, but try not to over doing it and spoil him too much. You have to know yourself worth all the time too.

PISCES WOMAN
She likes to be in a dream world than to be in reality. She is weak and sensitive when it's come to "Love". She can cry if her best friend is breaking up, and she can be over excited when her friend gets a new boy friend who is a good looking and rich even it is nothing concerned her at all. You might be surprise to see that she is shy just because she is in love. More or less it will be in Pisces woman. She loves small animal and gifted in training animals. She has sixth senses and she can guess what will happen next, it's her nature. Even she has a good sixth senses, she can not pick or foreseen her own choice of lover. She can not tell if she meet a sincere guy or a one night stand guy. She likes to buy and pick her own cloths. She likes to dress cute and be cute. Pisces woman tend to be a good looking woman and she has a nice skin. Her hands and feet are small and soft. Pisces woman loves to shop for shoes as if she collects them. She is a hot lady that everyone wants her. Whether she has a man in her life or not , she will never try to over powered any man. It's not even in her thought. She thinks man can handle things better, and she will make her man feel that way. She is an easy going person, so being with her is easy. She is a confident woman and likes to make people who stay with her happy. She knows how to please and how to comfort a man. If something is wrong, she will try to make other people belief that it's must be because of someone else, not because of her love one. She will not push her man to be ambition but to make him feel like he should be happy with the way he is now. She is happy with you for what you are now. A Pisces woman , if she has a bad childhood, she will always remember it and it will make her a very unhappy person. She will pity herself and feel sorry for herself. She tends to hurt herself with out knowing it and so vulnerable to drugs (real drugs or just sleeping pills). She has many choices and you can never tell which path she going to take. If you love her , then hold her tight because she never knows why she did what she did or what she will do next. A complex character. You may think she is a shy innocent type and can not hurt anyone, then you are wrong. You might think she is a fragile person who needs protection, wrong again. She has been through a lot, a tough cookie. She is a dreamer and love the word "Love", so she is the type who will buy gift for anyone for any occasion, especially if it is a gift for wedding or an anniversary even for someone who she does not know so well. Be very careful if fall in love with Pisces woman. She can be a total different person before and after. She can be an angle before and later a witch, but everyone is not perfect, right? She will be soft and gentle most of the time, so not to worry. She is emotional and extremely sensitive when she frequently got hurt. She is the type who can cry her heart out. She can have a secret fear inside, when she says she does not need anyone. She badly needs someone to protect her, but sometimes she can hide that feeling by being stubborn. She likes to hide her shyness and her weakness from her enemy. She does not like to follow any fixed rules. She can be a good housewife if you know how to handle her. Many men will ask to marry her because she is a 100% woman. If she wants to be sweet, she is a real angles.

AQUARIUS MAN
Hot-hearted man who likes to do thing his way. He can suddenly decide to do something without thinking of it's outcome. He is the type of guy with an inside energizer, so if you fall in love with this type of guy be "patient", even if you have to follow him a bit. His creative mind could create fantastic idea any time. If you do not understand or can not follow him, you won't be with him for long. A man in this Zodiac will less likely to have a pale skin, and if he has a scar, it would be on his face or on his head. He moves very fast and very energetic, and he has a very self confident in himself. He is not the type to sit down and feel sorry or regret anything for long, especially with "Love". He loves justice. He dares to show his opinion or even argue about certain subject even he knows it might bring him problems. A straight forward type of guy. He hardly lies except if he think it is necessary and he is not a good liar anyway. He will not lie to you about serious matter, but if he lie he will lie only a small little thing. He is gifted with the ability to be a very social person. He could talk even about subject that he has no knowledge of. He interests only at the present time and look at the world positively. Many times he feels hurt because of reality, but he will not run away and he will overcome that difficulty. Even he is a high and self confident type and center his own thought as a main focus, but at the same time he is a kind, cute and polite guy. He certainly is not a mean person. He likes to help people who are in troubles even he is not asked to. He is the type who feels sorry if you remember bad things he said to you that he had already forgotten, but you did not. Belief him that he is very sorry and give him another chance. Once he decides to do something, he will put all his mind and energy in it either in his "Work", or "Love". He is the type who gamble anything in the casino, so do not even take him there. He does not like pessimistic, low energy, and depress person, especially no brain. Strangely he like to overpowered this type of people to assure that he is more superior. He like to be the first person to do something. You can see sparkling in his eyes, once he meet a new target or new lover. Once he is in love, he willact as if he never has love like this before. This minute he could be real sugar sweet, and later he could also be an icy cold, but do not blame him for that will only chase him away. He could fall in love again with another girl and act again like he never has this kind of love before.He could really love someone, but not a heart broken type for he thinks love is "excitement" and "Love goes on". If you date this kind of guy, do not or avoid showing your face to him with face pack, face mask, always be presentable, nice and cute. If he is quiet not because he is shy, but he is only quietly thinking. If you have a chance to ask his X-girlfriend, she will tell you that he is not a shy or quiet type. If he is really and truly in love with you, he will never lie to you at all. How do you know if he loves you, bet on your faith! Love him and treat him steadily and do not try to find anything to argue with him, he will be with you for sure. If you are his lover or girlfriend and need to tell him something, go and say it out loud and straight forward because he hate long boring story. He hate to play games, chasing for love or being chased, so let him call you first. He likes a confident woman who also a good follower. If he gets mad at you, let him be for only a short time he will be normal again. You have to like and be able to get along with his friends, but he does not have to do so with all your friends. Don't ever think you could make him jealous by flirting with other man, he will just leave instead of making a scene because he is a confident man and has to be the first in everything.

AQUARIUS WOMAN
If you are in love with a woman in this zodiac be prepared to be very happy or be very sorry. She is a very busy person with her own matters similar to a guy in this zodiac. She is able to live by herself without any guy in her life, a very strong person indeed. Not because she does not have a dream guy, but if she can not find such person, so what. Because she thinks she could do anything that a man can do. She is a leader , a real confident type. She likes to do things by herself, such as serving herself, opening the door herself. Because she thinks waiting for a helping hand is a waste of time, and she is not patient enough to wait around for that. If she starts to ask you out, do not think she starts to flirt with you, but because she thinks it is a waste of time to wait for you to be the one who asked. She likes a COOL guy who sometime act like he is ignoring her, so he has a chance to show him his own confident. She like to guess her man's reaction, but at the same time she likes to has many men wanting her. She is a daring type who could just do thing differently from other people in her same society. She dare to fight for what she thinks belonged to her. Even she acts confident she mostly feel lonely and alone. If she breaks up with someone , she won't show any emotion even deep down inside pain and agony. Not for long she will come back to be the cheery and merry person again, because she looks at the world positively and has "Faith" in the word "Love". She has more men friends than women friends, so do not be a jealous type if you date her. She could be slightly jealous, but she hates jealous guy. She loves "Freedom" so before and after marriage , her freedom has to be the same. She likes you to trust her, even if she does not trust you anyhow. She likes to be the one who is "Right", so if you argue with her , let her win if it is not a big deal for you in that subject. She is a straight forward type, so if she does not love you anymore, she will just tell you straight to your face. Her love and relationship are always real, so if she say "It's over" be prepare to leave, she is not testing you. She is not a vulnerable type, so do not have to worry about her, she will survive by herself. If she is with you when you get sick, she will certainly take care and look after you, even look after you mean "small loan". Do not have secret with her, she hates it and really can piss her badly. When she is sad , be understanding. When she is happy, be happy with her, she likes that. You will not get bore with this type of girl. Someone who is close to her will know that deep down beneath that confident and cold hearted person, she is just as fragile as any woman. She is a fun and talkative person and she likes to tease you. Do not let she talk alone, if you do she will leave. She has many type of jobs because she beliefs what a man can do, I can do. If you want her to work for you, forget it. When she is in love, she will just leave her job in the day time just to come to see you, but not for long she will go back to work seriously again. Prepare to live and love with a "Working Woman" then you will be OK. If she mad, find a shelter for the "Hurricane" is here! Her bad temper will last very shortly though. She is not a revenge type and will not think of "pay Back" time. Most people might think of her as "One of a guy", but in fact she is a 100% woman. She is easily hurt, so be nice with her. If she really loves you, then you are lucky because she is an honest, truthful and will never bored you. Understand that sometimes she will be over confident and sometimes like to have power or act bossy.

CAPRICORN MAN
A man in this Zodiac will has a pair of round big beautiful eyes, a nice structure jaw line. He is a good listener and can understand everything easily and clearly. He can guess what you will say before you even say it. He often shakes his head or touch his hair. He is a big built, but he will tend to have a small ear. He tends to have a darker shade of hair and eyes' color. He will likely have a short and strong neck, broad shoulder, muscular, strong hands and grips. He has a shorter fingers compare to the man of the same size and same height in the other zodiac. His hands can work well at the same time can protect and care for his woman. His height will be proportional to his weight. He will walk firmly and always take a big long step. As he walks he will look around in caution with no disturbance from his problems at present or in the past. He likes to watch things built with fascinate and wonder about how it is done, so you could see him watching a construction site and not get bored. He is a good dancer. He is a careful person in instinct, so even at dance floor, he will already have to know what in front or behind him before he will take any steps. Green is his favorite color. You will mostly see him wear green, navy, blue, or brown. In all 12 Zodiacs, he is the one who can get the most satisfaction from possession of beautiful thing, and cherish it as if it is very valuable to him even it is just a crystal ball made in France. It is his luck that he hardly has to chase after woman. They always come themselves without his invitation. He likes to treat his guest in his house than visiting his guest at their house. He does not like to be a center of attention, so if you need his help, you have to look up for him. He lives his life in stability and simplicity. Every decision made are already "Sure" and carefully thought out. He will not do what he has been asked to do if he is not interested in doing it. He acts casually but in reality, he always doing things seriously. He loves peaceful and quiet environment so in his free time, he will stay at home instead of going out and look for adventure. He loves nature and dreams of a nice and quiet house with lots of trees, or he may dream of a house in a beautiful countryside. He will let you have freedoms and watching you in a distance. If you are over doing something, he will let you know by his icy cold look. He is the perfect lover in all the Zodiac for nothing he will not do for his love one. He won't allow people to laugh at him or think he is a joker, so he will spent for himself luxury for what it is worth. He likes neat and well dressed woman, so do not be a slop if you are dating this guy. If you do that he will loose his face. He is the romantic type who would dance with you under the moon light. Love will make him shines and you will see it in his face. He will not say it out loud, you have to know it yourself.

CAPRICORN WOMAN
A tall slim, cool and quiet woman. Once she is mad she can be very fierce. She can work better than some men and she is very high confident woman. In her opinion, woman is not just a flower or decoration at home or at an office and certainly not a weak sex who needs protection. She likes to control and hide her weak emotions. She will never try to change anyone, but she will learn to accept them as they are. If she does not like someone, she will not comments or criticize but she will completely ignore that person. She hate plastic and an artificial flower because it make her feel that you are not being sincere. She loves real flower and it's scent. She loves a guy who wear after shave cologne. If you are a type of a guy who wear your Jean one month before washing, or wear an old sneaker, then you can forget about her. She loves music and nature even there is a rare case otherwise. She loves to go picnic in nature, so if you don't have so much time for her, you can take her fishing too. She is not as jealous as Aquarius or Leo woman, but do not cross the line O.K. Better not to see she gets mad, especially in front of public when she feels like loosing face. She loves to make up and dress perfectly and very neat, so never rush her for this matter. She has her own goal in life and does not care if you have a doctorate degree or not, if she thinks you are not bright then she will not care about you at all. She likes smart people by character not by certificate shown. If you can not show her this quality, go and take a bus and go to the next stop. She does not like a dreamer who talk about his dream but never put his hands in action to make it happens. Don't bother to tell her "everyone is doing it, you should do it too", or "I think you should do it, it's good for you", because she will do what she wants to do only. She is a neat and tidy person, so if your apartment is a pigsty , do not take her there. If you go out on a date with her , try to be presentable such as nice and clean dress, clean nails or else it will be your last date. She is a cool type and will not nag, so easy on your ears. She is a slow but sure type. She will always respect and honor you and will never try to make you loose your face. If she loves you, she will help you in anything you do. She likes to help people and expect nothing in return. If she asks you for a favor and does not get one, she will feel very disappoint. She has a high hope and a high faith and beliefs in her own confident than believing in "Luck". If she is your wife, you will have nice and clean home and a gourmet cooking. If your parents visit your house, they will be please. She is a 3 in 1 means , a perfect mother, a perfect housewife, a perfect wife or you could say "happily ever after".

GEMINI MAN
A man in this Zodiac has a thin long and proportional face. He has a high forehead and very cleaver. He looks like he can not stand or sit still, a very fast person. His nose is just right in size, thin lips, talk fast and very talkative. He can think faster than he talks, but once he start talking, he will talk non stop as if god has gifted him with that special talk machine mouth. He likes to cut his hair short and he is very athletic. He is a tall, slim and every movement of his is "Fast" or nearly call "Hyperactive". He has a long fingers and always tapping on table or moving his finger as if he is trying to grab something. He is the type who will write or scribble on paper, he never stay still. His hair always well comb or neat. He will spent a long time to comb his hair. He will keep his manicure and pedicure clean. He is a well dress and clean guy, so if you like cleanliness, you will love him. He will keep all his cloth in big closet, and never throw away even shirts he never wear any more, but yet he still keep buying new cloths and make sure he is in style. He knows how to dress well even with a low budget. He get bored easily with his favorite cloths , cologne. He is very picky, so soap and his cologne even have to be in the same trend or same scent. If you date this kind of guy, you might think you are dating 2 guys, you will have to guess his feeling and emotion. Is he doing thing because it is a duty, or is it because he wants to? He change his mind as fast as he change a new pairs of shoes. He can pick up a book and roughly read through and understand it's contents, so if you see a Gemini man who reads the whole book, then he must be influenced by other Zodiac. He hate to set fix schedule, and dislike a boring same routine job. He could hardly be on time, and can only keep time if it is complete important and necessary. He does not come late because he forgets, but because he always find other attractions along the way. He likes to act opposite to what he wants to do. He is a very good speaker and make a very good politician. He can easily persuade other people and well presented himself in public, a real charmer. If he is a writer, he will write the best seller. He always search for truth and constantly study himself. He never satisfy about his fame, his reputation or money, because he thinks he deserved more. He will keep searching even he is not sure what is his ultimate satisfaction. Woman in love normally wants to feel secure and stable, but if you fall in love with this guy be prepare to be alone. He will come to see you when he feels like it. He won't even know how he spent his days everyday, so adjust yourself if you love him. Dating him is like dating 2 guys, so today he can tell you how much he loves you, but tomorrow he might call you to cancel your date. When he upsets, he could tell you he hate your dress, even it is the same dress he used to tell you make you look very sexy. Do not ask him why he is that's way for he won't have any explanations too. When he is back to normal mood, he will take you out again and forget what just happened. You can not expect him to be the same person now, and forever. His changes will depend on you, for better or for worst. If you like to take risk and dare for challenges, you will get along with him fine. He keeps his emotional secretly as if hiding it, so you will not be able to see if he crazy in love with you, or does not give a damn at all, but be calm and patient. He will never leave you if he thinks you are a puzzle, then he will spent times solving this puzzle.

GEMINI WOMAN
A good looking woman with brains, a very interesting person. She has a fast movement and she could not sit still or stand still long. She is able to do many things at the same time and do it fast. If you date her, you will feel like dating many women at the same time. You can not tie her down with the word "Love" because she cares about love but is it not a major factor of her life. You have to be able to adjust yourself to get along with her many different characters. She is a dreamer and has many dreams. She eager to learn something new all the time. Even she is the 2 in 1 mixed character type, she is quite lucky in love. You have to put all your efforts to win her affection. Even when she likes you and wonder about your wit, she will also see and inspect your bad side at the same time, because it is in her nature. She able to keep all kinds of mixed emotions without annoying you or letting you know at all. She can cheer you up by acting like a free little bird. Her conversation will not bored you. She able to talk to you in any subjects. She can make you feel like you are the luckiest man alive. She can make you feel like she needs all your care, but once she needs to stand alone, she can stand alone firmly an comfortably. She can be your best buddy and talk to you about anything. She can join all your activities with the same energy that you have. She is a quick wit person and learn new things very fast. She can see your projects and she can give you good advice. If she thinks you are not sure that you want her for yourself, she will act like your best friend only, a cool woman. She can easily make a guy fall in love with her. Her multiple changes and many moods is a "Charm" for many men. She can be laughing for 2 minutes and later suddenly quiet. She wants to find only 1 true love and she wants to meet her dream guy. She expects a lot and nearly too much. She is constantly waiting for her knight shinning armor even she is with a steady boy friend. She can fall in love or fond of someone else while she is with you. If you break up with her, she will forget you quite fast, because change is in her nature. The Gemini woman breaks more heart than woman in other Zodiac. Because she is a dreamer and always waiting for her knight shinning armor ,so her love life can be complex or a mess. She hates to write a long letter, so if you write her a letter and expect a prompt reply, forget it. Because she has a multiple personality and multiple ideas, so she hates to put them down in written proof. Because she knows what she belief today can be different tomorrow. She could communication with more than 1 languages , a real gifted linguistic. If she wants to tell you any bad comments, she won't say it straight away, but she will talk to you about many other things and accidentally come to that subject without offending you. Normally she will not lie. She will work hard and once a while take a long rest. She can get bored and tired with her own surrounding more than at work. She never feel content with her present work, money, or reputations, she will drive to have more. Don't ask her what is her ultimate contentment for she will not have an answer. Once you get to know her, she will be a supportive person and always be beside you. She has a beautiful dream and she loves to have someone walk side by side with her, together and equally.

CANCER MAN
The most sensitive man and the weakest emotional type in all Zodiac. Most Artists are Cancer. Cancer is controlled by the "Moon" and the moon change it's shape daily, so Cancer man's emotional and moods change all the time too. You will confuse with him and yet it is his constantly changes that "Charm" you. He never go to get what he wants directly, but he will wait for a chance and opportunity to do so. Once he gets what he wants, he will not loose it, except if he get tired of it by himself. The most sensitive man who can not stand rejection. He cares what other people feel or think of him. He hates loosing face and he tends to over protected himself, so sometimes people might think he is a cold person. Gifted, creative, imaginative, is Cancer. A mystery and complexity play a major role in a life of a Cancer man. He could be very funny, very quiet, suddenly very sad. Living with him could be very unexpected, for you will not know what is his next mood. If you like excitement and surprise, you have the right guy and never have a chance to get bored. He thinks of his home as "nest" and it is the safest place for him. If he feels hurt or depress he will stay at home alone quietly. Once he feels better, he will come out of his retreat and lives normally again. Being a looser is not him. It is so easy to fall in love with this guy because he is gentle and a very polite guy. His wit and creative mind could win your affection. He will come out from his nest to protect you even if he is not opening himself up to other people much. Not many people will win his heart. His security is only when he has money in his pocket. Once he feels secure then he might think of having a happy family. Even he likes to make and keep money, he is not stingy. Spending money is part of his good image, so he will be happy to spent money to take you out to a very expensive restaurant or buy a jewelry for you. Certainly when he has money OK. He is possessive to everything's that he thinks belong to him. Don't try to talk to another cute guy in front of him, he will get suspicion because he is not very secure or confident in himself for this kind of competition. Once you know each other too much, he will start to look for new excitement, but not to worry for he will always think of you. If he thinks you are the true love for him, and you try once to disappear. You will be sure he will come and look for you. He is a shy guy, but if he likes you. You can get up in the morning and see that he is in front of your house everyday till you go out with him, a very persistent guy. He likes a secure, cheerful and lively woman, confident but at the same time always act proper and appropriate. He likes a secure woman, but able to adjust to his rapid changes. A very difficult type to find woman indeed. In the beginning, you and him will be so sugary sweet together and he will only think of you. This so "super romantic" will not last forever, so don't slip this chance. If you are the one who want his interest, then act and make yourself interesting. Be a supportive person and give him compliment sometimes, but not too much till he thinks you are not sincere. Unlike many other Zodiac, if he is mad then you better get out of that room. He will calm down by himself. Giving him a slight touch on his shoulders or concerned facial __expression are enough. He loves his mother, so try to be his mother favorite, but do not act like his mother!

CANCER WOMAN
When she is in love, she will act both ways. First, Shy and polite trembling to be near you. Second, Attach to you like glue and trying to be with you all the times. She will try to go home with you after work, or have every lunch with you. It is O.K. if you like her too, but if is is not the case, you will feel very uncomfortable. She hates to be talked about or gossiped by someone else. If she knows she will be very hurt. In nature she is a shy type, except she has been influenced by some other Zodiac. She is not a brave or daring type, so if you like her then you better be the one who start first. She will not accept her true feeling, so if you like here you better tell her first. She is like a musical note always change in tunes, so one minute she can be funny and cheerful, and one minute she can be sad and depress. Other people may think of her as "Over-acting", or "Over-reacting". When she is depress, she will go out and look for things to make it up. She loves money, and thinks of having "Money" as "happy", not as "God". She will not look down at you if you do not have a lot of money, but she will help you make money, save money. She is not an extravagant person and sometimes will tell you not to buy her expensive and not useful gift. She is the type who enjoy a long and quiet walk. Cancer woman also influenced by the "moon", so under the moon light she will be fascinating woman. She has a constant fear for many things. She fear of not being smart enough, not pretty enough. Even if she is not fat, she will not be satisfy. Assuring her of her look would help, because she can change mood 4 times a day. She is not stingy, but you will not surprise if you see she collecting old or broken junks. She sees that everything are useful to her. She will find a way to re-use it again some day. She is not a jealous type,but possessive. The best part of her is that she will sacrifice everything for her love one with no limit. Don't leave her in times of troubles, she will never forget it. She is not a weak type, even she looks like one, Example if you argue with her, she might cry her heart out. Once you left, she will wipe her tears and start clean up her apartment normally. She is a very careful mother and will look after her kids every steps of the way. If she is a mother of your children, you are at ease, but if she is your mother in law, you are in pain. Not to worry, this type of mother in law will not let her own daughter being an "Old mate". She could be moody and argue with you in many little things like many women, but she always wait and want to take care of you. If you argue with her and disappear a few days, she will be waiting for you, but not for long O.K. This kind of testing is risky, try not to do it. The Cancer woman need 2 things to be happy which are "Work" and "Love". She can be live in a dusty house, but she can not live in that same house with no Love.

LEO MAN
He likes to comb his hair backward, open his forehead showing a dignify facial __expression. His eyes is sparkle, but slightly showing laziness. He walks firmly and slowly like a lion, confident and ego proud. Outside, you may think he is kind and gentle person, but inside he is a strong and secure person. If he is frighten, he will re-act and respond right away. His words always seem normal but mostly imply "order and demanding". He will not talk fast, or can not talk fast, neither walk fast. In a crowd or at work he will act normally, but not for long you will see him standing out of the crowd and be a center of attention with his words, or his action. You might think he is a shy guy, but deep down inside he wants to power over his family and his friends. He just waits for that right moment. Do not take what is his, and do not order him, or else you will see a fierce lion. He respects elderly and senior, but will never bow down and accept like a looser for he will rather die than loose his dignity. He talks bluntly even on an occasion that he should not say such thing. He is a compassionate guy and always look at other people on a bright side. He likes people to listen to him. Even he has such a blunt and bold personality, he could easily reach his goal without making any enemy. Once disagree with him on something, he can be very up set like a rainy storm on a summer day. It will only last a short time, then he will be back a cheery merry person again. He is a bright and witty guy, and he will not put any efforts on something that he thinks it will not work and waste his energy. He is a good planner and can well manage his job assigned. When he gives order, he expect them to be carry out exactly. He is the leader type that the followers love. He can give other people advice and solve problems for other people well, except his own mess. He can be easily hurt by other people especially if you do not trust or respect his ability. You could compliment him sometimes and make this lion be your kitty with no difficulty. He is not a good judge for he listen to many people and tend to belief all sides. You can hardly see a Leo man with no woman by his side. If you see him alone, he could already have a love one in his heart, or just broken up withone. Because he is very proud, he can change many girl friends. He will do many things for the woman he loves, but loosing his face is not one of them. Leo man can not live without love , because for him Love is a ray of Light. He likes people to rely on him, it's make him feels "in power". He may complaint if he is asked for favor, but deep inside he is happy that you asked him. If you offer to help him , he will refuse you right away. When he is broke , he can find money still. He is not careful with his way of spending for he has fun with spending money and happy to buy what he likes. He lets other people borrow money from him easily even if he has no money, he will run to his friend to borrow money for you. He likes first class , first quality of everything. He can work hard like a mad dog, and sometimes can be lazy like a lazy sleepy cat. When he works, he is very serious. When he parties, he can be a party animal. If he ask you out, you will sure have a fun and jolly time. He will take chance with his love life, so if you know how to handle him, you will win. If he is your love one, it won't be a romance novel. You have to be ready to calm him down when he over reacts to small matters because your cool stability will control and ease his mood. If you can not handle or understand him, your relationship will be like a demolition zone, a on and off relationship till all your friends tired to hear about your breaking up and making up. Beauty is always in the eyes of the lion. You have to be dignify to walk with the lion king. Your looks is part of his image and ego and he is very proud about it too. If you want his attention the first time you meet, you better be astounding attractive. If you have a first conversation with him, you have to show him how much you adore his thinking. He likes to talk and not knowing that he likes to talk about himself.

LEO WOMAN
She will stand out of the crowd on the street. Leo woman normally tall or rather tall. You will hardly see a short thick woman. When she walks she walk like a queen, confident and does not look around, though as if there is no one around her. She will dress in her own style not according to fashion. She is confident of what she choose to wear. Do not buy cheap cloths where they sell in dozen for her as a gift, she will hate it. Also do not buy cloths that do not reflect her confident personality. She likes unique and strange cloths and accessories. Being different is what she loves. If you want to know her, take times and be patient because she is selective about people she mingles with. She's open minded, but yet she is not letting people get to close to her easily. She likes sweet words and compliments, but not too much. She smiles with anyone, but inside she thinks she is borne to be a leader. She likes to be in control because it is in her nature instinct. She is a graceful woman , and she has a magnetic charisma, so expect tough competition. She is a very proud person, so do not do anything to challenge her confident. She can be mad and act like a hurricane, and later can be like an innocent kitten, but do not fall for her O.K. She remembers everything and likes to cherish her sweet memory, so if you find her old photo albums with her ex-boyfriend or love letters that will make you puke, take it easy. She is keeping her sweet memory does not mean she still in love with the old fool, so you do not have to panic. She will have many guys run after her, so if you have advantage of a good background family, or a famous last name, a successful career then it's a plus. She hates to be poor and she thinks love will not pay bills. She is a sport type and love sports. If you want to date her, prepare to spend big bugs, for your first dinner with her can not be a hot dog stand, but better be the best place in town. She is a generous person, so do not be surprise if she give you a gift more expensive than what you gave her. She likes extravaganza, no cheap gift, no cheap dinner please. Being poor or broke make her depress. If you do not have lots of money, be creative and make your own gift for her. It's unique quality and times spending making it for her is a big deal. You can think economical, but do not be cheap.

VIRGO MAN
Time is precious for Virgo man and if you make him wait, he will consider that as an insult. He hates to hear criticism and hates to be criticize. If he is criticizing other people, then he must be influenced by other Zodiac. He is and he likes to be a perfectionist. He always think he is doing the right and appropriate thing , and often he thinks he makes no mistake. He is a bright guy and could accept comments if he thinks it can improve himself. He is the type who well adjusted to make changes. He will spent money carefully and spent it worthwhile. He will only extravagant for his personnel pleasure only. He is quite romantic, a type of guy who can drive 100 miles just to tell you how much he misses you. If he does not care about you, he will not even spent a dime to call you locally. Long distant special low rate call is also out of the question. He hates rough and crude people. His woman has to be clean and dress well. He inspects any thing in details beside being a perfectionist, so you could be lying in your bikini with a perfect figure and he can suddenly comments you about your big feet. If you gain 2 pounds , he may comments you are getting too fat. Before going out with this kind of guy, look at yourself head to toe in the mirror and ask yourself if you are really and entirely ready. Unless he dates a model, then he will have less comments. He is neat and tidy, so his life always in a schedule, a fix time to lunch, the same time to go home. He is well knowledge about food and conscious about nutrition, so you won't see this guy eating a junk food, or strange and exotic food for sure. You will see him in social events or party if only necessary. He is gifted with acting, so if he says he can not go out with you because he is sick, then you will belief him. He is a hard to please when it comes to what to eat, how to work, what kind of a woman to date. He always neat and tidy all the times, even if he is in the army, he will be the cleanest soldier in the camp. He likes to speak properly with no slang. He hates laziness and lazy people. He always act like a boring mature adults, but getting to know him , you will know he has his own charm. He always see things clearly, so he is not the type to be blinded by love. He is a kind and cool guy, but if constantly irritate with rudeness, ignorant, or stupidity then he will show you that he is annoyed. You may see a guy in this Zodiac dress up in an old shirt and old Jean, but if you look carefully, you will see that his hair is neat and unconsciously he will touch his hair a lot. His desk is always neat and if he sees small scrap paper on the floor, he will pick it up or put it in the basket. People may think he is selfish, because when he says "No", he really means it. Any favor asked , he will help but always in his own limit. The more he see faults in others, the less he wants people to see his. If you want him to change his faults, try to tell him gently or he could take it as an insult. He wants love that comes with quality, so he only has a few loves in his life. Woman's trick will not work with him. If he breaks up with a woman, he will also try to avoid all her friends and her environments too. He is very picky and every breaking up, he will be double careful next time. He can sweep woman with his charm, but he likes to keep his relationship like a friend. He likes a sincere self confident woman, neat and clean, perfect and tidy. A real two "P" , picky and perfectionist Zodiac.

VIRGO WOMAN
She will be similar to Leo woman in appearance. A slim woman who walks with confident and proud. She has an egg shape facial structure, high and round forehead. She likes to look straight as if she is searching. She is not a pretentious type and will always say what she thinks. You will see Virgo woman walks fast. She will try her best to be perfect, to look perfect and to feel perfect even though there is no such perfection. She is very delicate of what and how she dress. She is bright and easily despair with obstacles. She likes smart guy who will be compatible with her, so if you are a rich dumb guy, you can forget about her right now. She is not a very possessive or jealous person for she expect respect from her love one. She does not like a part time lover, or a temporary mate. If she finds her dream man, she will not go away. If she does not like you, she will always keep a certain distant. Act proper and appropriate is her discipline. She does not like and can not stand bad languages, cursing words or phrase. She likes a gentleman who open the doors for her. She wants to feel protected and when a man taking care of her, she will feel like a complete woman. She memorizes everything about other people and about herself very well. She can really keep secret, you can trust her on this. She likes a refreshing and a mild scent. She is very delicate in maintaining her beauty, so you could see she is seriously picking soap which match and most suit her skin. Do not comments her on this very picky habits, it is her happiness in working full times as a self beautifier. She is not an innocent angle for sometimes she can be as tough as steel. Even she easily despair, she is not the type to cry over it. She is a shy type, so making speech in front of the room can make her nervous even she walks and talks confidently. She only search for true love , not just any love. Her love is an ideal one. She likes to think no one is neater and as effective as her, which can irritate you sometimes for there is no such thing. She likes sweet talk, but she can slip and say something unpredictable and unbearable to you too. When she stops getting mad, she will totally forget what she just said and be an angle again. If you have a date with her , you'd better be there on time. Flowers and sweet word can calm her down. If you want to say sorry , make it brief and straight forward. Do not drag your apologetic words into a long making it up events, it could lead you to another world war. She likes her man to dress nice and clean. She is good in details especially with money. Do not make she thinks that she is a clown or funny. In the beginning of knowing her, please try not to glance at other pretty woman so much. Early period of dating her, try not to hold her so much in public, it would not be a proper thing to do. She loves books, stage play and music and likes to criticize about them too. Criticism woman is her icon including big and small things in life starting from your hair, your dress , and the way you talk. If you are in love with her, be as almost perfect as your can.

LIBRA MAN
A man who has no balance like his Zodiac symbol. He is not the gentle, cool, calm and charming guy like what you see. He has another dark side of aggression, stubborn and he likes to start an argument the most. Sometimes he can be so depress and unstable. Up and down like he is trying to balance himself most of the time. To many people, he is a friendly guy and always smile even when he is mad or up set. His voice always gentle and calm. he always set and comb his hair as if he comes out from a shampoo advertisement. Mostly Libra men are good looking, even the ugly one is charming. When he smiles, it is so bright that the whole world is smiling with him too. When he is in a balance mood, he is the type of person you want to be with. In other unbalancing mood, he likes to make people argue about something and watching it with fascination and fun. He will wait to be the one who compromise and clear thing up. He likes to be in a conflicting conversation. Libra man is lazy by nature. After his tired day at work, he likes to sit still and just look out of the window or read quietly. He likes to be in his own world. After recharging his battery, he will be very energetic again and may even take you out that night. Libra man normally will not do any shocking or abnormal things to be noticed. He likes to be conformed with his crowd, but if you watch him carefully, you will see the different. If he wear a shirt, it will have to be a zipper front instead of buttons, or a special tie bar. There is always something in him that he will not allow totally conformity to take him over. A straight forward , no non-sense guy. He is careful and delicate in details. He will spent extra time to doing it right, than comes back to correct them later. He hates people who boost, or exaggerate. He does not like over dressed woman or make herself a center of an attention. He loves to read. He loves poems and loves art. When he works he can work like crazy, but after work he can turn on romantic jazzy music and treat you so gently. He loves to give people advice and normally give a good advice. If you fall for him, you will stay like being trapped in a spider web. If you want to break up with him, he will persuade you a zillion ways to stay and you can not stop him anyway. After he persuade you to stay, or after a big fight, he will be so sweet to you as if he has never hurt your feeling before ever. He will has his own way to win a girl love and affection. Once she says yes, he will lay back and wonder if he should go on or if he should back out. In his teen, he changed many girl friends because he can not clearly separate loving a friend and loving a girl friend. He will check and re-cheek if his match is suitable and compatible with him. Even he is a romantic man, he can hardly understand the emotion of the one he loves. He is a generous guy even he sets his life so systematically. He never knows when he makes you unhappy. He never knows how he up set you. He will never knows what he said wrong. If he is your lover, be prepare for this. A not so pretty girl with no brain is not his type of woman. If you are not pretty enough, he will not mind talking to you but he does not care to get to know you. Any girls, pretty or ugly can ask for his help, he will be happy to help. He hates to argue by yelling at each other, so you tend to see he argue with his girl friend seriously but try at best to be very quiet. He likes to have a girl friend by getting to know each other like a friend first. If you want him, you have to like the same thing he does. He prefers a pretty and gentle woman than a smart and ugly woman. You have to understand his mood especially he can has many different moods. He is a private person, so when he needs to be alone better let him be.

LIBRA WOMAN
Libra woman mostly has an egg oval facial shape. She has a nice smooth skin and a good figure. She will spent so much efforts to keep her skin clean and pretty. She can be easily allergy to cosmetic and make up, but taken care of her face and avoid wrinkle is her hobby. She is good at it and tend to look younger than her age. She can be very naughty like a little boy, but yet fully 100% woman. She looks nice in either Jean or night gown. She thinks woman is equal to man. Sometimes she can think faster than you, but she will not leave you far behind. She will try not to make you feel like you are competed or defeated in any games she plays with you even she is winning. She is a little flirt even she has no idea what she wants. She can not decide what to do, and what not to do, so she can not set her schedule very well in all cases. She is gifted with how to dress, and how to match her dress. She likes to dress in black and wear perfume. She likes a mild flowery scent. In any argument, she can really argue. She can argue for hours, and mostly win the argument. If it is not a serious argument, she could argue and once a while give you a smile also. She will make a good politician, because she can tell which party will win the election. She always has a good reasons ,even she likes to contradict herself. She can not decide what is right and wrong for her, because everything has a good side and a bad side. Woman in other Zodiac might not care what other people think, but Libra woman care what other people ,or what you feel as much as her own feeling. She can adjust to her environment very well, so at work she will be at the ladder up. She likes team work in doing things. If you ask her for help or advice, she will help you except if she does not like your guts. She can change you and make you think you change by yourself without her influence. Good side of being with Libra woman are she never interfere with your privacy. She will not make you loose face in front of your friends. Even she cares about how much money she has left his her bank account, she will never forget to let you know how much she cares for you. She think taken care of the house is a woman job and she can do it well. But if you expect a Libra woman to fear you, then you are wrong. She is a strong woman even she looks at you with that sweet innocent pairs of baby's looks and may loose you (let you win) in a few poker games. If she is the one you are after, then go step by step. The best way is using her friends introducing you to her. Do not make her feel or treat her like a bubble head. You have to move forward toward her with confident and secure. Show her that you are a kind , polite and a real gentleman. Be a slow hand or else you might get smack!

SCORPIO MAN
A man with a foggy clouds over him. He is sensitive and easily hurt and always feels lonely. He does not trust anyone but himself. Sounding so negative, but he has an amazingly charisma. He is a compassionate man . He absorbs other people sentimental feeling and pain. He is a good psychiatrist and he could understand complex and confused feeling. He has a hidden power that he could use it to make things happen and do things well. He does not like people who never try to help themselves before asking other people for favors. He is the type of guy who mostly achieved his goal in life.Once he sets his mind for something, he will put all his energy and efforts in it , whether or not it is a small matter or a big project. One of the most success man in all the Zodiac. He is a very patient man and can waits for years to reach his goal. He hates thin feeling and weak determinations. He can not retreat or rest for long, for he thinks life has more questions and more answer to be searched. If he is in love, you will get plenty of love from him, sometimes may be too much than you have asked for. He is serious about love and relationship and will not waste time with someone he does not love whether how pretty she is. He hardly makes mistake. He could tell if you have any bad thought, and will not hesitate to tell you so. If you do not like straight forward sincere man, then pack your bag now. If you are an over sensitive person, try not to ask for his comments. He will tell you the truth, even you might not be able to take it. Example , if you ask him if you are fat (and you are fat), he will say "yes, as big as a balloon". He makes such comments because he cares for you, so do something about your weight and do not get up set with him. If he says "you look pretty today", you can be proud because he will not say such think just to please you if he does not really mean it. There will be both kind of people, those who like him and those who hate him. If you are in love this guy, be strong and belief in your decision, do not be vulnerable. He remembers all his anger and will wait for his pay back time. He is very serious about your promise, do not promise something you could not keep. He loves his friends and will do anything for his close friends. He likes you to take care of him, but not in front of his friend. He is a complex man and you will never understand what he means if you do not really know him. He is happy to know he is a complex figure. When he is thinking or when he needs his privacy, you should give him some space. He memorize everything well. You may say something that you already forgotten, but he will remember every words. He wants to be respected and admired and at the same time he does not like people to have power over him. When he falls in love, he really falls deep. A man in this Zodiac once in love, he will be sweeter than sugar. He does not like a plain and simple woman. A complex woman's mind is his venture. Always be interesting and able to talk to him about every things in any subjects. He does not like a woman who sits around waiting for his call.

SCORPIO WOMAN
A simple woman who always show what kind of a moods she is in. You can tell right way if she up set, or if she is flirting with you. She displays herself with her act much more than trying to say it for it's in her character. A Scorpio woman has her own mysterious personality. She is confident and deep down inside she is quite proud of herself. She hates to think she is borne a woman and so limiting her with a certain social acceptable rules. She is a real woman and despite her innocent and childish looks, she has a spirit of free soul. Many men will make mistake if they think she is a good follower, they are wrong. She thinks being a plain simple housewife is boring. She likes to have power and control over other people, but this will be only her secret, so you will only see a cute woman. Every things she does will look good, and she has all the woman's trick you can think of. She can manipulate men without they knowing it. If you think she going to do everything you say because she loves you, then you will be disappointed. She could be a little tomboyish and she can understand you by just looking in your eyes. You may say sweet words which could sweep any woman, but not with the Scorpio woman. She will use her X-ray eyes reading your thought of what you just said or what you are going to say. She always smile and she can really hide her feeling. She will constantly show you that she loves freedom. If she has freedom, she will not leave you, but will even love you more. If she wants something, she will do everything to get it. She has her own sixth sense of people and you can feel that energy feed back when you around her. She likes a man who can earn her respect, and she will also respect and feel proud of that man. A man with power over her should not threat or challenge her confident. She likes to have a good looking , strong and healthy man especially if she start to compare with her friends' boyfriends. It is a plus if he hold a degree or a good career. She is a hot lady. She likes heavy music. She either loves or hates, there are no "fond of", or "like" for her. Love has no "may be", or "perhaps". If she is real mad, she will trash and throw things. Her wind storm can sweep all her dishes and you could get accidentally hit on your head for this matter. Be calm, it is just your grand mother favorite china for she has good quality as much as her bad tempered. Sometimes she shows her weakness, but it won't be long. She will put herself together and back to be that hot chili again. If she loves you, it will be no matter what other people may say. Her relationship will be more important than what is right or wrong. Because of this reason, you may know some Scorpio woman become a second wife, a mistress. She is spoil, but she allows her love one to over power her. Dating this woman, you should not keep old love letters in your pocket or in your house. It could be a love letter 2 years ago, but never mind she will argue about this since this is a big deal for a suspicious woman. Remember she has a temper of the shrew. If you play a cold war with her, she will treat you likewise and double it. If you stood her up once, she will stood you up 2-3 times. She is quite fair in justice, so she can accept your apologies as much as she can pretend to accept things for now and wait for a pay back revenge in the future. If you are nice to hear, she will double that to you as well. A real fair woman. She likes to make and spent money. She likes to have fame and reputations, and never let herself broke and have no name at the same time. She is too proud and will not accept status of being "Poor". She loves to have face, so if you are a manager with small salary, she will be proud more than more money being a truck driver. She hates to think and she can not stand a feeling of being a "Nobody". If you like her, play a little hard to get. This will excite her a bit. When you go out on a date, set your schedule, but do not let she knows that you have planned this for weeks. Always go to pick her up on time or better to go 5-10 minutes early.

2006-08-06T12:13:00.000+08:00

it has been such a busy and tiring week.
but it's definitely a fruitful one =)
wah i din realise i two weeks din blog le.
haha.

i see huimei 5times in two weeks' time.
which is quite alot considering our school is so far apart.
haha miss me too much right?
keep yue-ing me.
haha.
anyway, happy belated birthday!!
we celebrated her birthday last sunday.
it's an unplanned one but we all enjoyed it.
for the past year, we keep planning surprise birthdays for one another, especially kbox celebration.
feel very bad that this year's birthdays like all last min plan de.
but anyway, we can gather and have fun together is the most important thing.
right? =D
anyway, we went to watch that day.
haha last min decide one also.
then we ended up sitting at the front row.
watch until very dizzy.
lols.
but it's super nice!!
very touching leh.
then i keep crying.
haha so nice so nice!!
then after that we went kobayashi to eat.
lols our usual place at cineleisure.
then me and hj were like just 30cm apart from each other, then we still keep sms-ing to ask about the cake.
cos birthday is like not complete without cakes.
i keep trying to hold my laughter cos very funny.
we like try our best to not let huimei know we are sms-ing each other then hj act until very funny.
then we like discussing how to make excuse that we want to leave.
hj: "tell them we go toilet then we hurry go buy. the usual excuse."
me: "but huimei so clever she sure know de lor. or we just tell her we going buy cake la. u say leh"
hj: "dun wan. u say la."
me: "no. u say. i think i'll laugh."
this continue like dunno how long then finally hj say le then we hurry go find some cake shop.
but orchard where got cake shop?
so we went NYDC see.
went vi'lage, starbucks.
went swensons also.
we very dumb, reach swensons le still dunno that's swensons, cos the sign was blocked.
luckily went to check, if not dunno have to walk until where.
then swensons got alot cake la, but huimei say she wan chocolate de ma, so dun have.
then we walked back then decided to buy the NYDC one.
there dun have the whole cake and it's super ex la.
so we bought two slices.
very ex.
then we took a candle then hurried back.
went there then realise dun have matchstick.
haha.
luckily huimei brought lighter.
haha the cake very nice =)

actually nothing much this week la.
just alot tests and homework lor.
always no mood and no time to do.
when i got motivation to stay up and do, my mom will keep nagging at me to ask me go sleep.
i also want to sleep la, but got so much work.
sigh.
she wont understand.

oh later going for SAJC band concert at esplanade.
shioks' performing. =)
so cool leh.
never been there to watch performance before.
ohhh so long never see jenny le.
wahh think the last time i saw her is sher's birthday that day where we meet to call sher to sing birthday song.
that's super super long ago!!
jenny, i miss u leh.
haha.

oh ya, sher, i receive your letter le!
lols.
so cool, all of us receive each of our letters on the same day.
haha sooooo happy =P

oh ya did i mention i went to crash SA on thurs?
wanted go back eat spaggetti one.
but was very full.
then when i wanted to eat, then no more le.
so sad.
then eat chicken rice and prata.
so nice so nice!! =)
i know the prata all the while very nice de, din know chicken rice also so yummy.
maybe i was too in love with spaggetti then.
lols.
then saw a lot of friends.
everyone was very shocked that i went back to just eat spaggetti.
cos they all think not nice de.
i love it la!
only wanling think it's nice.
she complains that now i've left, no one eat spagget with her le.
lols.
i met up with sheena, then we loiter around the school, cos we nothing to do while waiting for hj.
then went to the gym to wait for the guys.
then watch shioks self prac a while.
then went to cafe to talk talk.
haha then joshua treat us the dunno what thing.
very nice also =)

okay la, gonna go do homework le.
tonnes of them piling up.
so irritating.
byebye =)

2006-07-22T23:53:00.000+08:00

thursday.
celebrated racial harmony day.
it's my first time wearing ethnic costume to school leh!!
back in ZH, like no one enthu about it de so din have the chance to do so, not even in sec four, which is very sad.
at first i was very excited about it la, but after that, suddenly feel the same way as tricia, i really think i'll look very weird.
but nvm la, since once a year only.
haha.
anyway, went to school super early that day.
then went to meet yuanting at the toilet first while waiting for the rest to come.
all the toilets were like super super crowded.
so we ended up in the fourth floor toilet of the science block.
haha.
then when we came out of the toilet, we realised morning assembly is starting soon.
so we ran all the way past the labs and down to the parade square.
then i hurry ran to the toilet outside LT4 to pass minjun the costume.
haha first time spending morning assembly in toilet.

lols i think we are only the few classes whole class wear de.
so cool right?
haha.
but too bad din managed to take a class photo of that.
cos very warm then everyone very fast change out le.

hmm.
then friday!!
holiday!!!!!
haha went to aaron's house early in the morning.
i so stupid la.
went to walk one whole big round around bishan just to get to his house when i got a straight bus there.
cos i thought got short cut ma.
k nvm.
then went up then we made sushi, sandwiches and stuff.
lols.
make and eat at the same time.
i din make much la, cos when i want to help out that time, we realised we dun have containers to pack all our food.
so no choice i have to go home and take containers.

anyway, we were supposed to meet the rest at 11am.
but we ended up leaving at 12pm!
reached parkway parade at around 1.30pm.
poor baobao have to wait for us for sooooo long!
so sorry!
then we walk and walk and walk to east coast.
after we found a place to put our stuff, it started raining.
we got nothing to do, so just started eating.
haha.
within a few minutes, half of the sushi is gone.
lols.
the bee hoon is nice! and the sandwiches and chips and mangosteen (is it spelled like this?).
yum yum!!
eat until super full.
urghhh feel fat again.
haha.
then went to rent bicycles.
yeah michelle so nice! fetch me again =P
then cycle a while then very tired le then went to rest a while.
then michelle keep wanting me to learn to cycle.
i very scared la, scared fall down.
then everyone's looking then very stress also.
at first i keep dun dare dun dare liddat.
but after that i see michelle and simon trying very hard to teach me so i decided to try my best.
according to wad they said, i managed to cycle around a distance of two lamp post on my own.
it's an achievement leh.
haha.
not bad la hor.

then after that we cycled for like dunno how many hours la.
soooo tiring.
can feel the muscles growing again.
so ugly.
cycled all the way until changi there.
never cycle for so long before.
legs super suan and my butt sit until very pain also.
wahhh then very tired lor.
then went back then hungry le and started eating again.
and played bridge!!
haha then very fun!!!!
michelle and baobao very funny.
haha so cute.

after that we walk walk walk again to yonghuan's house.
super super far lor.
then cos very late le then we walk very fast.
then dunno who, i think aaron or simon started skipping.
then michelle say liddat skip can go very fast and not tired one.
then the guys in front started skipping.
the scene is like super funny la.
JC guys skipping like primary school girls?
lols.

it had been such a fun day =)
it's a pity that minjun, angie, sokhua, yanhao, shuheng etc etc miss the fun.
lets go again next time =D

saturday (today).
after tuition, went out with 06S09 class.
PS thai express.
i feel very weird there, cos mostly all SA ppl, only me, sharon and meiqi not in SA.
especially i wasn't very close to them in first three months, then now even more weird.
then amellia was like asking if i miss SA.
then i say "a bit".
then she was like unhappy.
i also found out that all of them like all prefer S09 as compared to their current classes.
but not for me of cos.
i feel totally out of place back in S09.
it was only until the last two weeks of school then i started to become closer to them.
closer a bit only la.
dunno why i just couldn't really clique well with them ma.
i'm closer with OG16.

i then realised how lucky i am to be in NY 0621.
they are more of my side of the world.
i can be myself most of the time.
with nice people around me, caring for me...
thank you guys =D

anyway, after dinner, we went to the cathay ben and jerry's to have ice cream.
the place is really cool.
there's a mini band playing - with only two people.
but very nice.
then cos one of my friends know them, so they came to sit with us and chat.
about music industry and singapore idol and stuff like that.
and the guy who was playing the keyboard and singing was actually a referee last time.
then he talked about his friend being a referee for world cup or something de.
not very sure, din hear properly.
oh ya and there's this guy, went up to sing a song for his girlfriend.
cos it's her birthday.
that's so sweet.
haha.

sigh now must really buck up le.
haven't been doing my tutorials seriously since after mid years.
realised promos are coming very very soon and dun have much time to study le.
always weekdays so tired then always fell asleep just when i pick up my pen and wanting to write something.
then when weekends come, i'll catch up with my sleep and always wake up in the afternoon and carry on the day with tuition (for saturdays) and food and tv (for sundays).
then when finally got time to do my work, it's already sunday night and i'm dead beat again and dun feel like doing anything le.
at this rate, how am i suppose to catch up with my work when i'm so lag behind already?
sighh.
someone, please force me to study!
please help to control me not to talk and stone too much and make me study and do homework!
siannn.

2006-07-17T23:04:00.000+08:00

today is the first day of our CIP at gracehaven children's home.
at first i was still feeling okay about it, but after seeing the girls, i got a bit nervous.
they looked fierce.
then the worse thing is that the girl whom i am suppose to tuition is of a bad mood.
she then disappear when we haven't even started.
then i dunno what to do la.
then after that ms lynette then tell me i'm going to tuition this other girl, sherlyn i think.
she look fierce leh.
a bit ah lian ah lian type.
but after a while, i find her quite nice.
she even told me about some personal things, and share with me her story.
she's very willing to learn.
like when the time is up, the rest all stood up and prepare to leave le, and i was still explaining a maths question to her, she still sit there patiently and listen and make sure she understand.
even say she'll complete that question and show it to me next week.
so happy to have her, who want to learn.
and i think she has potential to do well.
hopefully i can get her back again next week.
=)

wahh now like everyday very busy le.
every monday, thursday got netball.
tuesday, saturday tuition.
monday night salvation army.
alternate friday jap lesson.
all cos of NYAA!!!
at first i was like thinking, why i so stupid go and introduce so many extra things for myself to do.
but after all the stress and problems, when i see the things going on smoothly, i feel very contented.
at least our hard work paid off.
=D
i'm glad that we are doing this.
if not, i think my JC life will be very meaningless with just lessons and tutorials everyday.
now looking forward to end of year ophir trip which we will be planning it all by ourselves!
yeah!!

2006-07-13T23:34:00.000+08:00

realised i've been keeping a lot of things to myself.
i know there's lots of people around me who cares.
but sometimes it's just hard to say it out.
and always dun have the right time to sit down and talk.
so just keep everything lor.
haha.
but so far i still can take it la.
so dun worry =)

2006-07-09T15:03:00.000+08:00

jus some random stuff.
suddenly miss those days.
and of cos, my dear JSH =)

2006-07-07T22:37:00.000+08:00

i've thought it through.
just let nature take its course.
some things cannot be forced...

YEAH my class is back!
for the past week, i feel very weird cos everyone like behaving so weirdly.
maybe is exam stress ba.
or maybe it's cos of my own problem then think everyone feeling the same way too.
but anyway, my class is alive again!!
lols.

today is sports carnival.
the day started off with whole of 0621 gather outside LT4 and copy chem prac homework.
haha i think only two, three people did that homework la.
then we copy le then pass around for the rest to copy.
haha so funny.
oh then the carnival.
a bit boring lor.
we self-entertained then very fun.
oh ya then our class like only got hekming take part in the running race.
then those funny funny stuff like the obstacle race and fun race, almost all our class people take part, representing the whole dragon house.

after that i went to send parcel.
so noob leh.
cos never send before.

kae anyway, after that i went to J8 to meet the rest.
after that went to jurong east ice skate!
it's my second time there.
the last time was in sec two i think.
always fall down one.
lols.
reach there around 2plus i think.
then we went skating for 3 hours.
i fell down three times.
not bad la.
first time is i collide with sarah then make her fall down also.
so sorry!
second time is when we doing train then yuanting was the last one and i was the last second one.
then she lost her balance then i try to hold her then end up falling also.
haha so fun leh.
very cooling.
but a bit pain la.
then the third time is train also.
haha last person slipped then all of us fell one by one.
so funny la, a whole group of people fall down together.
but very pain leh.
haha.
oh ya did i mention?
it was HEKMING and SHUHENG'S birthday!
so we went there celebrate their birthday.
wahh then got one part got "snow" come down one.
sooooo nice la!
but it's all soap bubbles.
very so cool leh.
orhh then got once we all gather then make a circle then make the two bday boys stand in the middle then we sang birthday song.
so fun!!
two of them so funny.
really had lots of fun there.
=)

after that we went arcade then went to eat.
michelle dunno why suddenly become soooo hungry and eat two set meals.
lols.
she very funny.
then while waiting for them to eat, me and tricia went around looking at clothes.
i want buy clothes!!
lots of them!
then i was very tempted to buy some shirts cos i realise i dun have many of them.
$6 only leh.
then i rmb just now we walked pass a 3dollar shop then decided buy it there.
me and yuanting were so excited while we walked towards the shop.
but it's so disappointing =(
sighh.

reached home and realised got some new blue-blacks here and there.
must be from the falls from ice skate.
lols.
the old ones are due to the battle at home while watching the semi-finals of WC on wed morning.
haha i think that one very dumb.
lols nvm.

oh yesterday went bugis shop shop with huijuan.
walk until legs so suan.
then we went to ICON leh.
never been there before.
so cool!
really very hongkong leh.
like looking at the road, it seemed like we are in hongkong.
then turn around to look at bugis junction building, it feels like we are back in singapore again.
lols.
then we went up the shopping centre to look around.
we din know there's lift, then we climb the stairs all the way up the 6th floor.
so dumb.
haha.
wahhh super hongkong leh.
got one corner of the shopping centre really look soooo familiar.
it seemed like i walked there before.
like turn around that corner then can go back to the shop where we bought our bags then.
ahhh i miss shopping at hongkong!!
lets go back some day!! =D

tuesday was the last day of our papers.
we went yuki no yaki to eat.
haha.
had lots of fun at the girls table.
so fun just sitting there and talk talk.
thank you all for bringing so much fun and laughter to my life =)

2006-07-01T15:54:00.000+08:00

have been meeting up with JSH quite a lot of times these days.
so nice to see them and hang out with them.
the same old jokes and way we behave and do things.
dun have to do much explanations, it's understandable to all of us.
we've been together for four years le, know each other too well.
that's why i think i feel more comfortable with them.
as they understand me the most.
thanks girls.

2006-06-28T23:12:00.000+08:00

last day of the H2 papers.
only left econs next tuesday.
=)
think i did very badly for all papers.
sigh.
maths - cannot do, no time
chem - can do, but no time
physics - got time but cannot do
lols.
sighhh sooooo sian!!
so sick of exams.

went pasir ris park after physics paper today.
i think we all really need a break.
went there go play playground and catching - the ice and water version.
haha yuanting got caught by junAn at the very beginning and got stuck there throughout the whole game.
haha then angie that ahma, got caught and saved for around 4 to 5 times le leh.
end up still got caught again.
haha, ahma jiu shi ahma.
lols.

then went to cycle.
urghh i still dunno how to cycle =(
luckily michelle's willing to fetch me =)
we rent the two people bike then it's SOOOO FUN!!
haha.
michelle's so funny la.
especially when we cycle into the grass maze that time.
cos got alot u-turns, then our brake cannot work properly, then we keep banging into the bushes and got the leaves and stuff fall on us, especially on michelle.
so poor thing.
we were the last the reach the middle of the maze cos of all the u-turns and dead ends.
haha but very fun!
then after coming out from the maze, we went cycling around.
got some parts i feel her getting faster and faster, then i started paddling faster lor since i have to follow her speed ma.
then we were like flying leh.
super super super fast lor.
then i kept screaming la cos keep got this going to bang into something and fall down feeling.
then very scary.
but it's so exciting!!
never cycle like that before.
that's so cool!!!!
really enjoy the ride =D

after that, angie also got fetch me.
haha.
i'm glad that she say she enjoy riding with me.
cos at first i feel quite bad in making michelle and now, angie, to fetch me just because of me not knowing how to cycle.
but after that, angie told me she feel much easier to cycle with me cos i'll be paddling at the back so she can use lesser effort in front.
haha and i caught her not paddling most of the times, trying to leave the work to me hor?
lols kidding.
is i ownself stupid la, non-stop paddling, no wonder my legs ended up so tired.
i din know can dun have to paddle at times one, cos the bike will just continue to move.
then we also keep laughing while cycling.
so fun!!
=D
quite few days never laugh until liddat le.

oh ya then we bought a kite.
tried to fly it, but there's no wind.
and like no one got the mood to fly kite liddat.
so din really get the kite up.

went home quite early today.
i din expect myself to do so la, cos i thought going until pasir ris, should be will go until quite late one.
went home with tricia.
had a great chat with her =P
cos after the cycling part, i went back to my depress mood and got very sian.
then after talking to tricia, feel much much better le.
thanks for cheering me up =)

jeremy just send me some photos.
wahh this one must upload.
so cool la!
that's really very amazing!!!!!!!

2006-06-28T22:33:00.000+08:00

it cant be happening again.
i'm afraid.
afraid of that loneliness and fear.
that same one which i've tried hiding away from all these while.
trying to convince myself that this isn't happening by telling lots of lies to deceive myself.
why?
why is it always have to be me?..

you'll never know how much the impact it caused on others just because of one statement of yours. the hurt and the pain. it doesn't worth it when the statement you've made doesn't benefit anyone, yet hurt someone else so deeply. so, it's time to learn to keep some unnecessary comments to ourselves.

just when i thought that life is so perfect, it's all gone in just a few moments and take me back to this terrible state.
i was so happy.
now, i find it hard to laugh or even smile properly.
when can i be happy once again...?

2006-06-22T13:47:00.000+08:00

GREAT BIRTHDAY =)

thanks to all who remembered and wished me happy birthday.
=D

wanling, junwei, simon, yuanting, weiwei, charmain, leon, junAn who smsed me at midnight.
that's very sweet.
of cos, not forgetting,
yongkian, shioks, yanhao, mommy, huimei, kexin, huitian, angie, yanyee, sheena, jack, jenny, tricia, sokhua, daniel, baobao, huijuan, wilson, minxin, sheryl, binghong, and last but not least, minjun.
oh ya, and dustin, who just wished me belated birthday.
lols.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHEENA TOO!! and prince william =)

i was soooooo happy and touched that they remembered my birthday!
primary school friends, secondary school friends, junior, SA OG mates, my dear OGL, SA classmate, 0621 etc etc.
and the presents i received.
=) =) =)
i love ALL the presents!!!
got a new bag, new pencil box, new clothes, new skirts and lots more..!
ahhh.
they really know me well.
haha.
know wad i want =P
sooooo happy!
thank you everyone who made my day =D

a special thanks to charmain for helping me choose the shirt that day.
we've made the right choice =P
lols.

haha now a bit sick of cakes le.
monday, went kbox with JSH.
this time was the best time ever.
i also dunno why, but i really enjoy that day very much.
haha actually i already guessed it was to celebrate me and huijuan's birthday, but i din expect cakes.
i only thought it's just for us to spend time together.
until shioks went to "toilet" for very long, and jenny went to "pick up call" for very long, at the same time, then i guessed they went to get the cakes.
lols.
our usual surprise.
we used to celebrate sherilyn's and huimei's birthday at kbox also.
haha.
there's cheese cake and chocolate cake.
not bad, but we eat until very full.
haha we always had this usual habit of eating the cake straight away without cutting it up and distribute.
that time went to opposite ZH coffee shop celebrate shioks birthday that time also liddat, 6 of us eat up the whole big cake.
haha a bit scary la.
anyway, it's a great celebration!!
haha then we stayed until 11pm then leave kbox.
if only my mom wont scold if i stayed till late late, i wouldn't feel like leaving, since the person din chase us away.
haha we already dragged for one hour le cos the package is until 10pm only.
lols.
then when we got out of kbox, it's like so weird la, cos the whole of marina square was empty with all the shops closed.
the whole place like only got us and a few more people only.
so empty.
so cool leh.
haha, never been to a shopping centre so late until all shops closed before.

oh ya i was talking about cakes.
i got a chocolate fudge cake for my birthday itself.
super nice!!
but so many cakes in these three days, make me very sick of cakes now.
haha.
i feel fat having to eat so many things these days.
but nvm la.
it's my birthday =)
haha.

hmm i did a good deed today.
so happy =D

2006-06-18T22:40:00.000+08:00

something's wrong with my tagboard.
cannot see anything one.
so irritating.

like very busy these days.
also dunno why.
no time to blog.

hmm.
reflect a lot these days.
kept thinking of the things that happened, think about people and stuff.
got over some stuff and feel much better le.
=)

kae lets see.
monday, 12 june.
ESCAPE!!
the girls came over to my house in the morning to prepare the bread and decorate the cake.
everyone was late, lols, too early le.
then we ended up creating a big mess cos we were running out of time and there's so many things yet to be done.
poor junAn, aaron and simon had to wait for us for so long.
so sorry!
and i must apologise for those waiting for us at pasir ris.
especially to dear minjun, the birthday girl.
poor thing, fall sick on her own birthday.

19 people went lehh.
0621 is the best la.
i've never been in such a class where everyone's so on one.
haha around 4 years din go escape le.
the last time i went should be during sec1, went with shioks they all that time.

i'm scared of heights, so when sit the "rainbow" ride or even the mini "ferris-wheel" that time i kept holding on to the handle.
i always thought i'm not afraid of heights one, since i live on the 21st floor, and not scared when look down from my window.
until last year went hongkong, then sit the huge ferris wheel and cable car.
wahh that one is super scary one la.
i'm scared of those slow moving and unsteady rides.
then those fast fast and turn around those kind then not scary.
i enjoyed the ride with minjun at the "pepsi" ride (dunno they change it to wad name le la, some walls thing i think).
we keep turning and turning then we chatted all the way, and laugh at the screams of others.

oh ya then we celebrated jack's and minjun's birthday there.
i'm glad that we receive good comments on the cake we bake.
haha.
cos i've never successfully bake a cake before.
lols. =P
0621 is filled with great and nice people.
we cut the cake le, then got some pieces left, then we gave them to the station rides in-charge.
cos they very nice to us previously, so tricia, angie they all never forget their kindness and suggested to give them the cake.
i cannot stress more, but 0621 is really a great class =D

the last ride we went for is the "wet and wild".
haha finally got chance to sit michelle le.
lols.
then we decided to go all out, since it's the last ride le.
haha then once we got onto the boat, we started splashing water at each other.
non-stop splashing.
then before we even go up the slide thing, we were all wet le.
haha.
so funny.
at the end of the ride, not a single part of my body is dry la.
haha then we went to shower a bit, to wash away the dirty water.
then we used the shower head to splash each other.
lols so nan de can play until so crazy.

we were like the last one to leave escape.
it closed at 8pm, then we slowly walked out at 8.15pm.
the security man is like staring at us.
so funny.

then we spend dunno how long deciding where to go eat.
haha michelle, angie, tricia and me were like walking around dripping wet.
so cool la.
haha never go home so wet before.
=)

tuesday.
went to watch omen with JSH =)
wahhh so long never go out with them le.
went to huimei's house eat again.
=D

friday.
OG 16 gathering!!
so sad i cannot stayover.
sighh.
went to meet them at 4pm.
everyone's late, as usual.
then while waiting for the rest, huijuan say she wan go s'pore pools to bet on the next soccer match.
then all of us followed her to find the s'pore pools.
only two of us went in to do the betting.
then the scene very funny, all uncles looking at the match numbers and stuff, and only two girls there looking very dumb.
haha cos we dunno how to see the match number and dunno how and wad to shade in the betting tickets.
haha i also chip in a bit for the bet.
finally after asking one uncle how to fill in, then we went to queue up.
wahhh super long la the queue.
not very long la, but dunno why it moved very very slowly.
we stood there for like 45min then finally nearing our turn.
then shuanghong call me and huijuan to go out cos later they know we not 18yrs old.
haha that time is also shuanghong went to buy the wine for OG stayover one.

then finally buy the bets le then we went to marina square "Changing Appetite" to eat cos never try before.
still think swensons is nicer =)
after dinner, i have to leave le, cos got jap lesson.
sighh so sad cannot stay any longer.
hope next time got somemore gatherings, with more ppl.
think cos this time got alot ppl went overseas, that's why only so few people went.
but it's great to see my dear OG mates again =D
HAPPY BIRTHDAY OG 16!!!

i rushed to toapayoh immediately.
luckily i wasn't late.
but have to wait for dwayne cos he just came back to s'pore only.
then we were like super late for the class.
first lesson leh.
feel so bad to the teacher.
then we took bus to toapayoh east cc.

stopped outside PeiChun.
super long din go there le.
it changed A LOT lor.
there's this indoor basketball court where it used to be parade square which flag lowering ceremony took place in afternoon sessions.
and the place where we always gather before go over to the cc for our remedial lessons.
and the sports hall, and car park where all the school buses used to park, and where we ran our napfa 1.6km there.
lots of images came to my mind.
kinda miss those days.

anyway, oh ya then minjun realised her wallet is gone.
then while the rest went for the lesson first, i pei her walked back to bus interchange to find her wallet.
on our way there, we received calls that say her wallet was found.
phew.
we thanked the bus driver who found her wallet and went back to take the same bus to go back to the cc.
haha just as wad mj guessed, it was the same bus driver!
lols.
then while we went back, the lesson is over.
haha.
then i bring them to the bus stop so next time they can make their own way to the cc by themselves.
sarah, simon and tiatming super blur one la.
cross the road le then realised they are suppose to the opposite direction one.

oh ya forget to mention, i receive my first present!!
haha from my beloved class =)
it's made up of many different stuff.
got two skirts, a shirt, a pooh and piglet cup, 4 soft toys - pooh, piglet, tigger and eeyore!!
so sweet =D
thanks to all those who play a part in preparing this present.
THANK YOU 0621 =P

2006-06-11T20:51:00.002+08:00

=D
so fun so fun.
just now yuanting, angie, tricia, michelle and baobao came over to my house to make cake, cookies and argar argar.
so fun!!
haha.
then me and angie were like eyeing the melted chocolate for very long.
then finally got leftover then we start to scoop everything up and eat and lick.
haha SOOOOOOOO NICE LA.
we made chocolate cake with chocolate coating, and cookies with chocolate chips.
then the jelly also very yummy!
the whole kitchen is like... WOW!!
all the smell of the chocolate, the mango, green apple, strawberry from the jelly.
ahhhh.

then we got lots of those kiwi seeds left.
then michelle started to play with it.
make us try to eat it.
then baobao's face immediately change when she tasted it.
so funny la.
then cos dun really have taste so we add sugar and the leftover fruits.
then it became very sweet then not bad la =P

tricia and yuanting had lots of fun making the dough of the cookie.
so funny.
oh ya i forget to mention when we try to separate the egg yolk and egg white.
haha.
tricia like very scared of the egg like that.
then she hit very softly then keep asking us, "can already? can already?" when the egg only got some small cracks in it.
so funny la.

then got a lot funny things happen la.
but very fun lehh.
haha ya we should do this more often.
lols.
yeah it's a big success!!
anyway, this is meant to be a surprise for jack and minjun.
we celebrating their birthdays tmr ma, at escape theme park.
then make our own cake for them and our lunch will be the cake, cookies and sandwiches.
lols.
we make quite a lot, should be enough for all.
must eat hor!!!
all our hard work and xin1 yi4 inside.

yeahhh so excited!!
hope that it wont dun rain.

2006-06-10T21:29:00.000+08:00

at first din wan to blog le, cos realised i've been blogging everyday.
like very free liddat.
must act busy a bit.
lols.
anyway, i just want to a big THANK YOU to my dear MINJUN!!

i was late for tuition today.
ran into the room then the first person i saw was her, cos she was sitting at the back.
then she gave me a cd.
dunno what is it also, so take le then go to my seat.
then when i reach home then prepare to see wad she got for me le.
saw her online, then she told me not to scream.
then i thought is something very scary leh.
then dun dare to open the file.
got prepared to run away from the com that time then i saw mickey!!
omg.
it's the video she took in tokyo disneyland parade!!!!
AHHHHHHHH.
she's so super nice la!!!!!!!!!!
lols.
i so happy now =D
yeah yeah yeah!!!!!!!!!
hahaha.
THANK YOU SOOOOOOOOOOOO MUCH!!!
muacks!
lols =)

2006-06-09T23:35:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MINXIN!!!!!!!!!!
OG16 rox!
i'll never forget your screams and laughter.
miss ya!! =)

2006-06-09T23:11:00.000+08:00

feel really down today.
got really stressed up by the nyaa stuff.
so hard to satisfy everyone.
and so hard to plan and organise all this kind of thing.
thank you char, for helping me soooooooo much.
thanks =)

wanted go swimming today one.
but it rained!
we were so disappointed.
got stuck at macs cos early in the morning, cc haven't open yet.
angie really very ah ma leh.
dunno how to say la, but she very funny.
haha then i realised we very similar in certain ways.
then very funny.
lols.

okay that's the end of the fun of today.
urgh.

reached home just nice for wo cai.
so long nv watch le.
either always forget or no time to watch.
then this time it's ah-ya's last episode le leh.
she going new york ma.
then the atmosphere weird weird one.
very sad.
especially the last part where everyone says good bye to her.
and jacky wu sang a song for her.
super touching la.
then can see his eyes got watery.
i started crying.
touched by them, and bu she de ah-ya also.
she's going for 7 years lehh.
then i remember the same scene when we sent sherilyn off.
i cry even more.
tried to control my tears although one or two drop down le, cos my parents around then i watch tv until cry very weird.
then after the show i immediately ran into my room and called yk and started bursting into tears.
so sad la.
sighh.
="(

thank you for always be there for me =)

2006-06-08T21:16:00.000+08:00

woke up with a shock today.
i thought my clock spoil, cos it read "12.15pm".
then i check my phone and took a few seconds to realise it's really 12.15pm.
i then jumped out of my bed and hurry get ready cos i meeting my PW group 1.30pm at marina square.
i managed to reach there at 1.35pm.
not bad la hor.
=P

after some discussion all that then we went shopping!
haha.
yanhao and shuheng very nice.
they follow us to shop around without complaining at all!
haha so nice.
we went into "ice lemon tee" then me and angie saw the 3 for $5 socks.
then i immediately exclaimed that i wan to orange socks.
then she said that's wad she's thinking also.
we were very happy then pull sokhua over and ask if she wan to buy socks also.
then she say okay.
then we took all 3 orange socks left there.
haha so funny.
k nvm.
then i was so happy from then on, cos i finally got my orange socks. =D

we all shop until very hungry.
so went kfc =)
haha me and angie got very high while talking.
we keep laughing and laughing.
haha so fun to laugh.
we were talking about our experiences at swimming pool.
we are going swimming together tmr.
then i was like telling her that she cannot swim near me, must go a few lanes away.
if not i'll laugh when i see her swimming towards me.
i dunno why la, cos i find it very funny seeing someone i know inside the water.
so i always ren my laughter when i see char in the water.
if i cannot ren, i'll swim to one side and started laughing.
then angie find this very funny then got very happy and started telling me about one uncle's goggles collecting water experience.
lols.

after that we went to minitoons.
we were like walking around then i saw yanhao and shuheng "arguing" about something.
then i went over.
they were holding on a soft toy.
then they turn around to ask me wad is the name of that character.
i said "goofy".
then yanhao say to shuheng, "see? i told u it's not donald. donald is a duck."
haha that scene is so funny la.
two guys standing there "arguing" about that soft toy.
lols.

we then went to the puzzle shop.
urghhh.
so tempted to buy.
so super nice la!!!!!!
some super cute ones.
haha.
then i start to get very high and keep laughing at some cute pictures.
lols.

so nice to be happy.
i thought it wont be a nice day cos some things happen and make me not very happy in the morning.
thanks to all of you who made this day possible.
=D
angie, sokhua, michelle, yanhao, shuheng and junAn.
thank you.

2006-06-08T00:12:00.000+08:00

really suay this week.
went to do PW survey on monday at toapayoh bus interchange.
i got stopped by the security man while i was talking to one lady.
he called us to report to the office before proceeding.
i wanted to complete that particular set of question first, if not, like very bad liddat la, like i ask the person do the survey then suddenly dun let her do le.
then that security man kept on coming to me and ask me go to office.
i was in very awkward position la, then no choice also.
apologise to the lady and went to office with sokhua to report.
luckily the officer is a nice man, chop chop settle then let us proceed with our survey le.
then that security man start to talk to us.
explaining his stand on why he has to stop us all that.
i understand he's doing his job la.
but he a bit lor sor la.
i thought he only tell us some stuff then can go off le.
but he ended up talking non-stop for one whole hour.
we all just stand there and listen to him.
i think only angie and yanhao listen la.
the rest of us were daydreaming away.
i agree that some parts that he say quite useful la, but the rest are just his life experiences.
he just went on and on and on.
finally, when we went back on our PW, all of us got very tired and sleepy and no mood to do work le.
sigh it wasn't a good day.

tuesday. 6 June.
i got caught by the police.
can u believe it?
first time in my whole life okay.
i was walking from J8 to the bus interchange.
u know that small road between J8 and interchange where everyone just practically jay-walked across?
i din notice the traffic light.
i was on the phone, when i see people cross, i just cross also.
then this traffic police stopped me.
i din know i just jay-walked.
then he call me take out my ic and he start copying down my name and stuff.
i saw one whole list of names on his paper.
haha luckily i'm not the only one got caught.
but that time i was very scared cos i scared my mom will know when they send a letter to my house to ask for the fine.
all that happened so fast that i din manage to get myself realised that i got into trouble until like 3 minutes later after the police take down my particulars.
i wasn't listening to wad the police was talking about, i remember him saying something like i can pay through dunno what and what one, cant remember exactly wad it is.
sighh.
so suay la.
so many people also jay-walk why catch me?
so irritating.

everyone's busy with their own life.
even if you stop and cry, no one will bother or pity you.
you just have to stand up on your own and catch up with the rest.
no one will stop to wait for you.
people only like to see others smile and laugh.
feel like crying? cry to yourself ba.
no one will care.

2006-06-04T18:01:00.000+08:00

2006-06-04T12:46:00.000+08:00

went ms ng's wedding yesterday.
3rd JUNE.
22 out of 24 people from the class went =)
michelle had to attend her secondary school teacher's wedding while hekming had to go for dragonboat since he's the captain.
we met at serangoon mrt station.
lots of people were late.
jack was angry.
so scary.
but after that okay le.
=)

the wedding ceremony in the church was great!
lots of feelings ponder upon me throughout the ceremony.
then i start to daydream about the day i get married.
haha.
that will be at least ten years later.
=P

we then went to have buffet and take photos with the couple and ms lim.
i agree with angie that ms lim should dress up more often, she very pretty.

went to jinhao's house after that.
NY 100 went to do PW while some of us went to play com, then the rest play heart attack.
a bit sian, then not very fun one.
then a few of us went to the playground to play.
the weather is like super hot, then we wear until so nice go playground then very weird.
haha but nvm.
then very hot lor, then i like no mood do anything liddat den just keep stoning.
that kind of weather is a good time to stone.
then we went back jinhao's house then play cards and eat icecream.
his parents very nice.
=D

after their group finish PW discussion, we then went douby.
din plan to go there one, then someone say wan go then go lor.
went there play arcade again.
i fell asleep on the chair there leh.
first time sleep in arcade.
haha.
very sian and tired.

the girls have been walking around in heels the whole day.
we walked until very xinku cos we all seldom walk with heels.
me and angie even got blisters from all the walking.
so whenever there's chairs, we immediately sit down and rest our poor legs.

after that, we went to have dinner.
wanted to play pool one, but everywhere got a lot of people.
so cannot.
by then, only left jeremy, junAn, aaron, jack, wilson, tricia and me.
then we just walked round and take some photos.
oh ya once, we walked the underpass.
it reminded me of "the eye 10" that underpass.
then i got a bit scared then walk very fast.
then they start talking about ghost stuff.
lols.
then i realised i very long never watch horror movies le.
wait for shioks come back then go watch "omen" with JSH. =P
super long never see huimei le.
she misses me!! =D
and of cos i miss her too, haha.

2006-06-02T23:54:00.000+08:00

I'M GETTING FATTER!!
okay, i've been repeating that for lots of times, but seriously, it's scary to gain so much weight in such a short period of time, so i'm very depressed over it.

thursday, 1 June.
we came to school for one and a half hours of lecture then can leave le.
then some of us say wan go opposite ZH to eat.
oh did i mention that i brought them to eat tom yum noodles that day?
haha they super on la.
that day i just suddenly have a craving for tom yum noodles opposite ZH, then i suggested it, then they immediately say okay le.
the other day we had a one and a half hours break then all of us who went to school that day went to chomp chomp market had breakfast.
that's so cool.
i love 0621 =)
k nvm, that's out of point.
oh ya i was talking about going ZH there.
then they decided not to eat there le, cos very crowded.
so we went J8.
then bla bla bla..
okay la nothing much happen.

ya then finally 4E4 gathering!!
when me and yk reach marina mrt, only shioks and yujia reach leh!
then we waited for quite some time for the rest to come then took bus there.
there's a total of 16 people who went.
yujia, yanyee, cheryl, jenny, shioks, huijuan, yongkian, mervyn, yuxuan, yongcai, jianlin, derek, bryan, dustin and desmond.
not bad le la.
so nice to see them again =P
then huijuan so funny.
we keep talking about fats again.
then she even squeeze her stomach fats for me to see and make me squeeze mine for her to see also.
haha miss talking to her, like very very very long never talk to her like that le.
wahh then that jenny hor.
aiyo getting worse le.
go and gang up with huijuan to scare me.
make me scream like an idiot.
u be careful next time hor.
haha.
shioks going off to perth with her band le.
so envy.
maybe she can get to see sherilyn.
so good!!!
i also want to go!!!!!!!
sure super fun one la.
haha.
everyday see she so happy, very excited for her too =D

anyway, we eat eat eat then start taking photos and all that.
then went to arcade play.
daytona and photohunt!!
haha so fun.
wahh the guys play bishi bashi very pro lor.
then they went to play the bubbles game or dunno what's that call lor.
very scary one leh.
suddenly will got alot thing pop out one then if it's i play sure very fast die one.
then dustin and derek and cheryl super pro la.
then play until quite late.
when my mom called at 11pm, and know i'm still at marina bay mrt station, she started screaming at me like dunno wad la.
very scary.
then i reach home just before 12am.
i know it's late la, but i also not everyday liddat one ma.
once in a while only, so should be okay de =)

Friday, 2 June.
went to yuanting's house with angie and sokhua early in the morning to choose clothes to wear to ms ng's wedding tmr.
so cool la, she got lots of clothes lor.
so nice.
after that then i went to parkway parade meet my netball friends to help them carry stuff for bbq.
lots of things to carry.
then bla bla bla then went to east coast prepare stuff le.
we planned a game for the seniors la, is to make them choose a no. then they have to eat the stuff on the plate stated with the no. one.
then we started making the food.
wahh chinping so evil, make all the very disgusting stuff.
haha so funny.
pepper + chilli + cheese + mentoes + bread + ....
all the different funny combi.
luckily i'm not the one who's going to eat it.
haha.

then finally the catering person came le.
me and audrey start the fire.
the charcoal is in a very odd shape.
it's like in tubes liddat one.
then very weird, dunno how to build the campfire thing.
so we smash them up into pieces, which is easier to build and burn.
so weird la.
there write "smokeless and odourless charcoal".
but there's lots of white smoke, make us build until very xinku.
anyway, ya it succeeded!!
yeah!!!
guides rox!
haha.

then cook lots of super nice food.
eat until i feel very guilty again.
the seniors all very nice.
=D

this bbq seemed to make me know everyone in netball better.
there's a lot nice and caring people in there. =)
on our way to bus stop, only 6 of us la, then we started talking about body shape.
so funny la.
they like comparing whose legs nicest, who got tummy or wad one.
haha.
they are all very cute people.
had lots of fun these days, but very tiring.
and the worst thing is i feel fat.
sighh.
haha nvm.
i'll go jianfei one day.

yeah tmr's ms ng's wedding!!
so excited!!
can see minjun and tricia again!
so long never see them le leh.
one week le.
i miss them a lot.
school is just ain't the same without them.
yeah i love JUNE!! =D

2006-05-31T23:12:00.000+08:00

went to AJ band concert with shioks and szehui yesterday.
on my way to meet them, when reach orchard, got alot people coming in ma, then i start to worry that they would get hit by the door of the train, so i try to find the button to press to hold the door for them.
then about 5 seconds later then i realised i've been thinking that it's the door of the lift.
so idiot la.
luckily my action wasn't too big and that no one saw me being so idiotic.

anyway, then i met them then we walked around to shop for stuff for the band people.
walk in circles for very long.
then finally decided to buy chocolates for them le then we hurried back to find VCH cos three of us all dunno how to go from suntec.
at the mrt station, shioks suddenly call out my name loud then hold my hand.
she scared i get lost ma, cos a lot ppl.
then about 2 sec later, i heard my name again. a loud one too.
then i "huh" very loud also, then turn around 270 degree.
a bit dui lian la, but nvm.
anyway, ya.
then saw sam.
haha.
so qiao.
last time go airport study also saw him.

finally we reached VCH le.
saw edwin.
haha he so funny.
blur blur one.
then we went to the circle seat there.
we look through the booklet given, then shioks suddenly say she saw xingyao's name under the band members there.
then we started discussing wad his surname is.
i remember start with "C" one, thought it was Chew, but the booklet say is "Choo" or something de.
then when the concert start, we try to look out for xingyao under percussion.
really is him leh!!
so weird leh.
i never thought he would join band one.
anyway, he also took part in the small skit they put up.
so funny la.
okay, nvm.

today, i woke up a bit late la, cos i was having a nice dream, which i forget wad is it about le, then dun wan get out of bed.
then i hurry rush to school cos i scared i'll be late.
but when i reach grandstand, like very few people from our class is there only, and lesson is starting.
then we just go in LT4.
saw a group of people there already, with bernard lee in front lecturing.
then we realised the lecture is on tutorial 8, which we have completed.
the rest say wan stay there cos got aircon.
so we chose the furthest seat to sit.
then mr lee saw us then call us go in front to sit, still say we are already half an hour late.
then we dunno wad to do cos the whole LT is like looking at us, so we just go and sit in front.
sarah then went up to tell him that we actually no need to come one cos go through finish le.
he then say we can leave le.
means we all wake up sooooo early for nothing.
lols.
anyway, then some of us went to macs to have breakfast.
saw my juniors.
they so cute.
haha guides uniform so nice.
especially the old one, which is our batch one!
i love my uniform.
miss wearing it.

after school we went bishan CC study.
it had been very peaceful, until a cockroach appeared!!
so disgusting la.
i hate cockroaches.
wad amazed me is that the place look so clean and tidy, yet there's a BIG cockroach crawling around!!
and i was sitting on the floor.
i just hurry sit back to the sofa and get everything up from the floor, especially my bag, in case it crawl inside.
then i just keep observing the cockroach lor.
at first i looked at it with a bit of fear, but after that i start to pity it.
cos it was like limping then walk until very xinku liddat.
then it tried to climb up the side of the table but keep sliding down.
then finally got once when it fell off from the table, it got overturned.
it struggled very hard to get back to the normal position but cannot.
then after that i think it got tired already, so just sleep there, or maybe stone there la.
with it's back on the ground.
quite poor thing.
but i wont go and save it la.
i still hate cockroaches.
but at that instant, feel quite sad for it.

IT'S JUNE =)

2006-05-28T22:46:00.000+08:00

HOLIDAYS!!

but this whole week still got to go back school for lessons.
sighhh.
and exams are coming.
so sian!!
i want a real holiday!
wonder when i can have it.
sigh.

went to kbox with 0621 yesterday.
only 8 people went.
it was quite okay la.
very ex.
maybe cos weekend ba.
but the room very shuang, and got a lot of songs there.
haha then jack broke a cup.
luckily dun have to pay.
haha.

after that junAn, jeremy, yonghuan and simon went to play pool.
they very rich lor, there de pool so ex, still want play.
then the rest of us went to play photo hunt!!
haha so fun!
but din manage to break the high score, so sad.
then we went to play daytona.
so irritating okay.
i go select the manual one.
then i realised i dunno how to operate.
then again, my car go super slow.
and the worst thing is i keep banging into the wall by myself.
then keep seeing the rest going pass me a few times.
means they overlap me like two laps liddat.
then i got last again.
sobs.

after that we went to eat!
super hungry.
i then realised marina square got food junction.
haha.
then after that went walk walk a while then go home le.
tired.

went swimming with char today.
it has been ages since i last went.
okay la, it's my fault cos always is i very lazy to get out of bed whenever char try to wake me in the morning.
the whole convo for today is about fats and muscles.
haha we are now very concern about the amount for muscles forming on us, which make us heavy.
i always thought netballers wont have much muscles one, cos see my seniors' legs and arms all very nice one.
but after this week's training, i can sense and feel the muscles forming in my legs.
and they'll get more and more muscular if i continue to keep training.
sobs!!
the worst thing is muscles are 4 times heavier than fats!
which means i'll continue gaining more and more weight!
ahhh.
i've been gaining weight non-stop since last december.
so scary.
okay dun talk about this anymore.
i'm feeling sad all over again.
sobs.

yeah 4e4 gathering is confirmed!!
thursday at marina bay.
haha think got quite a lot people going.
so excited to see how much people have changed.
lols.
i miss sherilyn.

2006-05-24T18:21:00.000+08:00

2006-05-24T00:13:00.000+08:00

thank you, all those who cared for me.
i feel much better now le.
=)

"holidays" are coming!
although got work to do and lesson to attend to, i'm still quite excited about it.
maybe cos it's JUNE!!
a special month.
lols.

hmm lets see..
4 june - my dear sis and yanyee bday
7 june - jaslyn and selvan bday
9 june - minxin and shaun bday
12 june - weiliang bday
13 june - jack, minjun, luke and meilin bday
14 june - lyly and yixiang bday
15 june - ailin, desmond and shuanghong bday
16 june - OG16 bday
17 june - huijuan bday
19 june - peixuan, siewjing and sam bday
21 june - sheena and my bday
23 june - linda bday
24 june - yijia and sheryl bday
27 june - liting and weihao bday
29 june - nicholas bday

okay, i'm just practically writing out almost everyone of OG16 birthday la.
really miss those orientation days back in SA as one OG16.
haha really hope more ppl can go for the gathering during the hols to celebrate our birthdays together!! =D

minjun just gave me this website she specially prepare for me.
that was sooooo sweet of u.
muacks!!
haha.
=P

okay, now i must really pick myself up again.
cannot keep slacking and do nothing everyday.
i think is i daydream too much le la, think too much rubbish, keep bringing unnecessary problems to myself, then no mood do anything.
cannot afford to waste this holiday.
must catch up with everything that i dun understand.
or else sure suffer like studying for o's liddat de.

ahhh looking forward to this holiday.
end of this week, hopefully can go kbox with my class again =)
then next week, hopefully got 4e4 class gathering.
then next sat ms ng's wedding!!!
then i also want to sentosa and escape theme park.
very long never go le.
then still got netball farewell party for seniors.
then got chalet and all that.
=D
i'm going to be happy again!!